Popular Post Jon Posted August 20, 2013 Popular Post Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 It’s hard to believe that 2 months could pass by so quickly yet be so memorably painful. The applause goes to all of the members of the forum. Your support has made all of the difference for me. My quit would not have been possible without you. Thank you all so very much, especially those of you who have reached out to me personally. I think that I am just about where you would expect a two-month old Adderall baby-quitter to be in terms of recovery. I am addressing the “other pillsâ€, slowly but surely, that supported the Adderall habit. Thank you all for not making me feel alone with these issues also. I have the rebound anxiety. It is very uncomfortable, especially in the mornings. There is a definite absence of crazy creative OCD behaviors. I can finally pass a bed of rock without rubbernecking (it’s an inside joke). I am still isolating myself from activities and people, focusing mainly on the essential tasks and the tasks of the “couch potato.†Strangely, it occurs to me that the more I do… the more… motivated… I feel (MFA in my brain somehow). It’s all so exhausting and so boring. I am blessed, however. I do not have cravings. It is not uncommon (Mike, et al), but I am aware of the dangers of relapsing. It’s a slippery slope. I am concerned about getting rid of my stash. I’m not exactly comfortable handling the pills. Someone called them orange devils. I like that description. Orange was my flavor. It’s the photographer’s full moon tonight. You take your full moon pictures the day before the actual full moon in order to make use of the suns golden light cast on a subject of your design or choosing. This way you have a nicely lit foreground subject with a full moon to carry the background. No one can tell the difference. The moon appears to be full in the image. I noticed this moon on a 30 minute speed walk I put in tonight as part of my continuing effort to put recovery coins in my own recovery account. Someday it will amount to something. Jon 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Congratulations on 2 months! So happy for you!! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cat Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Congrats on two months and appreciate the update! Having read your updates from when you first started posting, I can tell you are making progress. Sounds like you are in the right mind space about your recovery, taking it day by day, not expecting any quick fixes but willing to put in work to get there. Good job on addressing the other pills. For me, quitting adderall was the major hurdle but quitting ambien really completed the picture. Anyway, glad you're here! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Jon, A big congratulations on 2 months! I'm continually impressed by how self-aware and patient you are....that is what recovery is all about. It's a tough road, but you seem to be using all of the right tools. I'm proud of you and your commitment to a happier, more peaceful life that is found in recovery. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Congratulations on 2 months Jon! I feel your pain regarding getting rid of the pills. I thought about doing it last night and couldn't bring myself to do it. You would think that laying in bed with them 2 feet away that it would be a simple task just to pick them up and bring them to the bathroom but I just couldn't do it. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Congrats man. Are quit dates are pretty close. I've really enjoyed your posts over the last few months. I look forward to celebrating 3 months, 6 months etc .. with you. As for you stash I think you should in case in concrete and throw it in a lake. Or pack them into some fireworks. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
blesbro Posted August 21, 2013 Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 Congratulations on 2 months Jon! I have read your other topic describing your story and I have complete faith that you succeed in staying quit. The fact that you're a huge reader will definitely help you and your recovery in a number of ways. It will help to keep your mind sharp and working efficiently. Things you read will be able to help change your paradigms you have in your life because in order to live life off of adderall, you must slowly change your paradigms and think differently than you used to. Also, I love how you related your 30 minute speed walk to putting coins in your recovery bank. I am reading "7 Habits of Highly Effective People" right now by Stephen Covey and he has used similar metaphors which have been really helpful for me. Anyways, 2 months is still early and you will continue to notice significant improvements every month. Although you may have a ways to go, just know that the first 2 months is harder than any other month of recovery. You have made it two months and that's HUGE! As far as getting rid of your pills goes, do it! They're garbage to you. They're worthless. If you don't feel comfortable handling them then perhaps wait another couple months and see how you feel. Congratulations again man, I am confident that you will figure everything out and have a successful recovery. Blesbro 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jon Posted August 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 Thank you everyone. Cat, Ashley, blesbro, LILTEX, Zerokewl, 1 bad88. Your input is important to me andI appreciate you taking the time to drop me a line. I wish we could be in a circle together. All the best to you, Jon 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted August 21, 2013 Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 Awe! We are in a circle together in spirit. Rise up and fly on free bird! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted August 21, 2013 Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 East coast, Indiana, Minnesota, Western Canada, Texas, and back is one giant circle. We got your back. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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