whosthisguy Posted October 29, 2013 Report Share Posted October 29, 2013 So, I quit at the start of this past July, so I've been just about 4 months clean. I will admit there were maybe 2 occasions that I snorted it to stay up and party, but I don't really consider that relapsing because they weren't mine and because I am an occasional drug user anyway, from soft to hard. It has been tough for me because I moved to NYC for school and don't have many friends here yet. Adderall used to fill my void inside so much that I didn't even need my current friends; I was actually pushing them away. Now that I'm here off Adderall, I am able to talk to people without having my heart race and hands shake. I don't give them death stares. I can talk to them more easily and focus on the conversation instead of having to consciously think about my body language. And people can tell that I'm a warm and outgoing person. When I first joined I was wary about quitting because I knew my academics would be hampered. I say I "knew," but thus far they haven't. I got an A on my first midterm in grad school and I'll be getting another back tomorrow which I am pretty confident will be another A. It's strange that a lot of things HAVEN'T changed since being off Adderall. I'm still spacey. I still procrastinate for hours on the computer. I still have anxiety and am prone to mood swings. I still have a bad temper. I still drink a lot. I still talk a lot in class and blurt out answers to questions. I still feel like I have an adrenaline rush sometimes that propels me to do things. Still impulsive. I thought quitting would be a magical cure for some of those, but it has shown me that there is still a lot I need to work on now that I am off it. One day I was so happy that I cried. I can now sleep through the night. I have gained weight and look better in my clothes. Some clothes don't even fit anymore (at my worst, I weighed 127-130lbs and I am a 5'9" guy....). And best of all, I don't crash in the evenings and want to hop off a bridge anymore! 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted October 29, 2013 Report Share Posted October 29, 2013 Congrats dude I am just about to celebrate 5 months. Early days were rough, but i'm really starting feel good even great now. Quiting hasn't magically changed me. But I'm a stronger more focused person because of it. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
whosthisguy Posted October 30, 2013 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2013 Congrats! That's amazing! How is the fatigue for you? Mine is still ever-present.... but my sleeping schedule is also awful. I tend to oversleep a lot, could be depression. I forgot to mention that I have gotten REALLY into running. I thought I liked running on Adderall (I mean, it does feel great not gonna lie) but running off of it is such a rush. It wakes you up and makes you happy. I don't think I'll ever stop. I ran my first 5k last month and my time was 28:00 and it has only improved since then. . (P.S., to any quitters reading this.... try cardio if you haven't yet!!!) 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted October 30, 2013 Report Share Posted October 30, 2013 Congrats! That's amazing! How is the fatigue for you? Mine is still ever-present.... but my sleeping schedule is also awful. I tend to oversleep a lot, could be depression. I forgot to mention that I have gotten REALLY into running. I thought I liked running on Adderall (I mean, it does feel great not gonna lie) but running off of it is such a rush. It wakes you up and makes you happy. I don't think I'll ever stop. I ran my first 5k last month and my time was 28:00 and it has only improved since then. . (P.S., to any quitters reading this.... try cardio if you haven't yet!!!) Fatigue is much better. Every month things get better. I really need to quit smoking and make 2013 the year I slayed the addiction dragons. Been cycling quite a bit this summer and walking a lot. I really wonder why I have a car now. With winter hitting the prairies this year I'm gonna get into a routine at the gym and hikes around the city. Depression hit me really hard August and September I went on anti-ds and adopted a kitten. The kitten ended my depression tho I'm still taking the Anti-D's. I'm using a new doctor now and had the I abused adderall conversation with him to. Overall I'm improving everyday and happy again. Good days / Bad days just normal stuff. All is well. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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