I'm afraid of getting fat

[Chaingang]

I know. It's so shallow. I struggled with my weight my entire adult life, until I was prescribed adderall 3 years ago. I shed 40 lbs in the first 10 months, and have easily kept it off.

I am afraid to not have adderall. I am afraid that without it I'll be a fat lazy slob who won't have the motivation or ability to accomplish anything. Even though I know that it's destroying my family, my marriage, my life....I'm afraid of who I will be without it.

I honestly don't think I truly realized that I am addicted to adderall, and that my addiction to it is at the foundation of most of what is wrong with my life....until I found this site an hour ago and read your stories.

Until tonight I had no intention of quitting adderall.

Now I'm considering it. Wondering if I could.

But I'm afraid.

[JustinW]

It's not easy to quit, but it is worth it.  I suspect that you have lost part of your identity in the last three years.  In the early stages of withdrawal, you will be lazy but you need to tell yourself that it's OK because your body needs to heal before it can begin to rebuild and recovery.  This is no small decision and I empathize with your fear, but you can do it!

[betterreadthandead]

Hey Chaingang,

Here are a few friendly suggestions. 

 

I wrote about the subject of weight changes here:  http://forum.quittingadderall.com/topic/2082-weight-changes/?p=17879.  Read it.  Then, read it again.  Then, think about what and who it is you think you are.  Then, read it once more.  Then, make a decision.  In that order.  Hope this helps.  : )

[TheMist]

hey men, quiting something you been used to it's not an easy task, but just think of this, after you quit, look to the end of the line, there is something there that you deserve most waiting for you. And at the end, you will say to yourself, "it's worth quitting".