Chaingang

I know. It's so shallow. I struggled with my weight my entire adult life, until I was prescribed adderall 3 years ago. I shed 40 lbs in the first 10 months, and have easily kept it off. I am afraid to not have adderall. I am afraid that without it I'll be a fat lazy slob who won't have the motivation or ability to accomplish anything. Even though I know that it's destroying my family, my marriage, my life....I'm afraid of who I will be without it. I honestly don't think I truly realized that I am addicted to adderall, and that my addiction to it is at the foundation of most of what is wrong with my life....until I found this site an hour ago and read your stories. Until tonight I had no intention of quitting adderall. Now I'm considering it. Wondering if I could. But I'm afraid.