Bubbagump99 Posted December 29, 2015 Report Share Posted December 29, 2015 Kinda freaking out a little bit.. I'm currently taking 30mg once a day. Been for 8 years or so. I tried cold turkey a couple months ago and just couldn't do it with my demanding crazy job. I need to be able to function. I want this over with.. but I know I need to do this the 'right' way and do it slowly so I don't f*ck up my brain anymore than it is... Feeling overwhelmed.. Scared.. blah Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted December 30, 2015 Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 There is great relief to be found once the doctor knows. I know I just felt safe. You GOT this! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted December 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 Thanks. The dr actually had to cancel today's apt bc of an emergency, and I rescheduled for tomorrow. Feel like the devil is trying to tell me this is a sign and to not quit! lol Smh Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted December 30, 2015 Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 That is the addictive voice (or what I picture as my little monster) trying to trick you! Lock him up and show him who's boss! Every time you refuse to act on the urge or messages he's sending you, you become stronger and he becomes weaker. Kick his ass!!! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted December 30, 2015 Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 Maybe...it is a sign that you should just quit cold turkey. Maybe...you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Just a thought. Of course, I will support you no matter what method you choose! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted December 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 Yeah, idk. I just feel so tired.. Like tired of it all. the pills, the drinking.. Been doing this for so long. I think I'm just at the point where as much as it is scary, I just want them out of my life. it sounds so lame but I feel like I want my life back, like I want to live. I want to feel. I can't do that with those pills. Feel like I've wasted so much of my life away.. 😕 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted December 30, 2015 Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 It doesn't sound lame at all. I got there, too. I wanted to be me again. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted December 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 30, 2015 So now I have 2 prescriptions she gave me. 20mg for 14 days, 15mg for 14 days, 10mg for 14 days, and then 5 mg for 14 days. Kinda crappin my pants over here😱 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted December 31, 2015 Report Share Posted December 31, 2015 Well, there you go. Motivation via prescription. AND you have a quit date to plan for. I am super excited for you. ...let me count this up. It will be a slow and constant withdrawal for 56 days and then the real thing for a few weeks. I wonder if the taper truly helps with the psychological part of it? The physical withdrawal doesn't last as long as psychological withdrawal, in my experience. I still don't understand dragging out the misery, but I hope it works for you and is as painless as possible. We will be rooting for you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted December 31, 2015 Author Report Share Posted December 31, 2015 Always- I know I've probably asked you this a bazillion times but please refresh my memory- how much addy were you taking? And did you ever 'abuse' it? Like take more than prescribed? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bluemoon Posted January 1, 2016 Report Share Posted January 1, 2016 Hope you're doing alright. I know this isn't easy and it's terrifying. In my experiences of trying to quit, tapering didn't work for me. I would try to take the lower dose and I would feel pretty out of it, so I would take another one just so I could feel 'normal'. I didn't have the self control to taper. And like AlwaysAwesome said, I feel like tapering just drags the misery on longer. Cold turkey was the only way for me to go. However, it's not for everyone. Everyone is different and you have to do what works best for you. But another good point that AlwaysAwesome had was that you're stronger than you think!! You can do this. I have a super demanding job too, and I used that as an excuse to keep taking the Adderall. I told myself I needed it, that I couldn't do anything without it. I even had myself convinced I couldn't shower and do my hair and make up without taking a pill first. Like... seriously?? Haha. Somehow I've made it through 42 days over here. The fatigue at work is overwhelming and I'm much less productive than I was before... but I'm surviving. I'm getting through the days (although it hasn't been easy), and I'm very hopeful for things to get better. You have to accept that you're going to be tired, you have to accept that you're going to feel a bit useless for a while, and you have to accept that you're going to gain a little bit of weight. It is what it is. I know it sucks, but it's the cold, hard truth. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 I was on 60 mg daily, and I never took more than I was prescribed. I posted a comment to my story so that it will be available for you to read. It should be there now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted January 4, 2016 Report Share Posted January 4, 2016 I read my quit story again and I had forgotten that I had cut back to 1 1/2 pills a day. It wasn't to taper, it was to prolong my Adderall time so I would not have to go without. I hadn't called to get my prescription in time and was going to run out. So, I starting to conserve the pills. Then, I decided that I would just quit. So, I suppose in a way I did cut back before quitting. I was taking 45 mg instead of my 60 mg prescribed dose. If my memory serves me, it was for about 2 weeks. So, there it is. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Quentin Posted January 24, 2016 Report Share Posted January 24, 2016 Hello, I love reading about others stories, they inspire me. I have yet to start working on quitting the Adderall but I must soon. I take 20mg 3 times a day but at times take more. I give out early every month, sometimes for a week or more. The one thing I have not done is talk to my doctor about my addiction. I am scared because I know once I do the Adderall will stop coming from him and I have no other source. I am ready to do something about this addiction and I know the first and biggest step will be talking to my doctor. I can't begin to imagine my life without the Adderall and yet I also can't imagine going forward with my really screwed up life on the Adderall... :unsure: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbagump99 Posted January 25, 2016 Author Report Share Posted January 25, 2016 Quentin- exactly how I feel. It sounds so corny, but I feel like I want my life back. I don't even remember who the real me is anymore. Feel like I'm just existing in life and not living it. And this drug is part of the problem. I don't want to waste anymore of my time. I'm currently down to 15mg from 30. It's hard, but you know what? The time is gonna pass anyways, so I might as well do it. When you're ready, you will do it. But that's just it, you have to be ready. You have to want it. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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