Surrounded by others on meds

[Lily]

Hi I'm Lily a mother of two small children. I've been taking adderall for about 11 years. Of course in the beginning I thought it was a miracle pill but it didn't take long for me to become disillusioned.

[ashley6]

It sounds like you're in a tough spot. I know, personally, I've had to remove myself from anyone abusing adderall, because it's just too hard for me, selfish or not. It's sad having to make that choice, lucky for me it hasn't been family, but it's something I knew I had to do. Some people can do it. I just don't feel strong enough. I've been clean 85 days or so, and it's tough, even without being surrounded by it. I know how I was while abusing adderall, and I wasn't a good influence on anybody, because I was essentially a robot. Family is important, but do you feel like they're good influences on your kids? I hope you give yourself the best environment you can to help yourself stay sober, for yourself and your kids, if that's the decision you make. I wish you the best!'

-Ashley

[highonlife]

It sounds like you will be able to make the right decision in the end. It is always good to avoid bad situations, but at the same time you won't be able to run forever. I can sympathize with you though because my roommate still justifies taking his Adderall and continues to do so each day. It has put a dent in our relationship; however, he is very respectful of the way I feel and does his best to avoid bad situations. I must admit he is part of the reason I failed the first time I tried to quit, bc he lead me to believe I NEEDED it to get through finals week. Since I quit about 40 days ago I have kept all of my pills without taking any of them. I will eventually flush them in the toilet, but I would like to know I can overcome any temptation, even if someone offers me some. When I truly quit looking at pornography for good, it was a true conviction that allowed me to do so. It wasn't some program that blocks bad websites. I am not saying there is anything wrong with blocking porn from your computer or moving to get away from Adderall, but I believe if you can stick it out without moving than you have for sure overcome the battle. But if it's too much you will have to leave. God bless.