Seriously man, keep strong. I know everyone says this, but it gets better. When I quit using Adderall, my dosages were not far from your peak of 300mg/day. I was a strung-out, emaciated mess.
I'm a guitarist and songwriter, and I can identify with that escape Adderall gives while playing music. But, after I quit, I noticed my creativity and real passion for music skyrocket. Within three months of quitting, I received an offer to tour and record with a Nashville-signed band as a lead guitarist. After five months Adderall-free, I finished writing an album, which I plan to record over the next two months. It's difficult at first, but as time progresses, it does get easier. I would have never tapped into that creative well, if it wasn't for Adderall. When I play music now, however, I get a sense of fulfillment that totally transcends the rise-fly-crash-burn cycle that amphetamines gave me. It's indescribably more fulfilling.
Getting to this point wasn't easy. I essentially had to re-teach myself what it means to be motivated & take initiative, but I wouldn't have it any other way. As others suggest, eat healthy, exercise, and sleep.
If you are ever struggling or need to talk, feel free to message me!
