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Thank you so very much for your reply and that website link, I needed both. It was nice to hear from someone else especially when I am so new to all this. I am going to Al anon this wednesday and hopefully I can find some people to talk to. I have heard not to take what my wife is doing personally and its mainly the adderall controlling her. I had no idea how powerful this stuff is I cant believe they allow it to be prescribed. Ive called her doctors a few times now but that is useless. I finally realize I cant control her or her addiction so Im all about starting something new and finding someone else to be in my life. Sad but seems like the only route out when someone wont even admit they are using it. Thanks again!!!!

Hello I'm hoping to get some feedback on an addiction perspective if anyone can chime in? My wife is addicted to adderall and admits she cannot quit. She has been on it for 3 to 4 years that I know of but she has been hiding it and lying for years. She faked a prescription and has had 22 doctors and been to 13 pharmacies since 2008 for numerous types of pills.Xanax, codein, oxycotin,hydrocodone, zambien,etc...I never knew about it to this degree. I feel like a dumbass and thought she was just spunky all the time and a jabber jaw. I caught her 3 times in the past few years and threatened to leave her but she said she would quit and didn't know why she takes them and doesn't need them. Guess she never did quit. She was always talkative and hard to converse with, very forgetful and her empathy and care for her family has diminished over the years. I have 3 little girls and her addiction is tearing our family apart. This web site has been a life saving event and I've read almost every article in tel your story. I didn't know much about pills or adderall until I stumbled on the insurance printouts. Thank you all for your stories!!! I believe she is on the downhill slope but she is begging me to stay with her but the things she does are just horrible. We are divorcing in less then 2 months but need to try and help her for the sake of the kids. She went from opiads to ampethamines years ago and she has played around with pills in the past and before I met her. I never have ever and am clueless about them. Three years or so ago she was on 10mg a day for a year according to the insurance printouts. I have been told she was getting them illegally as well before this. Then uped it to 20 mg a day per month and now she goes thru 60 pills of 20mg every 5 weeks so almost 40 mg a day now. She appears to be bi polar, she doesn't have ADHD. She is paranoid an so hard to get along with but she says she has it under control and doesn't have a problem and never has. What I don't understand is she gets up every morning to get the kids ready for school and seems fine right away, she eats alot or seems to. She drinks at night a bit and is now prescribed Xanax for insomnia and nerves she says BC of me but I'm laid back as hell. She has lost alot of friends, her husband, a great life and flys off the handle at times. She started smoking again and her financial status is in the toilet. She has been staying up late even with the xanax. She never follows thru on anything and is extremely selfish. Yells at the kids alot. What I don't understand is I can't tell she is on it all the time??? Her pupils are always really tiny and not dialted. From what I read she shouldn't be eating, sometimes she can hold decent conversations. Socially she is a bit awkward, she hates school events but when out in public she talks to everybody but it seems real fake. My outlook on it is she is pretty bad off and I'm thinking the future will just get worse??? I want a bright future for me and the girls and her but I'm hoping someone can smack sense into me and tell me to just walk away and their opinion on how bad she is and will most likely get? Her family won't help and they have dealt with pills forever... Any advice would be a blessing as I am lost and feel alone..thanks!

I am going thru the same problem with my wife, we are 6 months into a divorce over this and I found out last thanksgiving she is addicted to Adderall and apparently has been for years. Absolutely heartbreaking because it is definitely over and we are madly in love… I lost my family to this dam drug! I wanted to post something for help on here but I’ve never taken Adderall or pills and didn’t think it was my place on this site but it is nice to know I am not alone as a spouse or related caring family member. I’ve been wanting to ask a few questions to people who were or are addicted on here if they think my spouse is addicted but I now know she is 100%. Don’t mean to hijack your thread at all. Not much on here for spouses. Our horrible story We are both in love but the arguing, disrespect and lies has just been way too much to handle for me over the last few years. We have three little girls and a beautiful life, home, jobs, goto church etc…and she is willing to throw it away because she cannot stop and I see no future with someone that won’t admit an addiction and even try to help themselves and her family. I have caught her over the years 3 other times with pills, Adderall, Xanax, hydrocodone’s, codeine etc... She was never diagnosed ADD and I know her girlfriends and her use to take Adderall for recreation once in a while, she always said she didn’t know why she takes pills and that she doesn’t need them and she would quit. I always told her it was me and the girls or the pills and she always said she would quit and I believed her but the insurance printouts show she never did. She did quit Adderall twice before for a few weeks so I think she wants off it but she cant. She now says she doesn’t have a problem but she has every dam sign of it. She said I am a control freak and it’s her body and she is taking her “MEDICATION†so I am letting her be and just moving on. It sucks!!! I called her doctor and he said she told him she was diagnosed as a little girl which is all BS. He still prescribes to her even now. I finally looked at Insurance records and we subpoenaed all her pharmacies and found she has had 22 doctors and dentists and 13 pharmacies since 2008. We have live 1 mile from a pharmacy for the last ten years and she said she changed for convenience---ya right!!! She lies, lies and lies… She has gone to multiple pharmacies in the same day and 3 diff ones within a week. This site has been more than a blessing, I have read almost every story on here and it has opened my eyes and heart and mind. THANK YOU MIKE FOR CREATING THIS!!! I believe my wife is going thru amphetamine psychosis. You can see her dosages increasing over time. She went from 30 pills of 10 mg /month for 8 months then to 60 pills of 20 mg every two months then that amount every 3 weeks. She is now prescribed 60 pills/month of .25 xanax a night for sleeping and anxiety (she says bc of me and the divorce). Before we split she would clean all day, stay at her hair salon “cleaning†until 11 or 12 at night. She would not pay me or my daughters much attention and be gone to Zumba early in the mornings and basically became a careless soul of a person. Every time I tried talking to her about our problems she called me a control freak. She doesn’t show up for any school events for our 9 year old either. I think the real moms scare her. Breaks my heart because she was a good mom even though she used codeine, hydrocondone thru the twin’s pregnancy and then amphetamines while breast feeding. I don’t know how I didn’t see the signs??? It pisses me off…. I always thought she was “SPUNKY†and outgoing, everyone now tells me they all thought she was doing cocaine or pills. Guess im just a dumbass. She seemed to be in a good mood all the time, each night and no signs of crashing but she drank wine and a shot or two of booze every night???? She now shows amazing signs of Anxiety, bi polar mood swings, very skinny, she now has facial skin issues, she wants everyone to know she’s doing great without me on fakebook but she is almost bankrupt and soon will be homeless but that doesn’t matter to her. She doesn’t show much care or loving emotion anymore or interest in being with the family. She spends money and ran up debt and wants to always goto Zumba, salsa dancing or wine tasting events but says she loves me and doesn’t want a divorce or break up the family? Just selfish and greedy and using me I guess!!!! I was going to goto Al anon for support but I don’t care much anyhow b/c of the evil things she has done and I know her long road ahead will just crumble even if I am there for her and she wants to quit. I’ve learned my Adderall addict will not quit for love or her kids so Im taking every sites advice and taking care of me and my little girls and just moving on and never looking back. Her family is a bunch of pill heads and they won’t listen, her sister lost her 4 beautiful kids to pills as well and why I was against them from day one… Sorry to vent so much! I just hate this drug and all pills! Be nice to talk to someone or if anyone has websites for spouses on Adderall I would love to find one… thanks!!!!