CarpeDiem!

I'm eating a Halloween sugar cookie while reading this ðŸ˜ðŸ˜³

I need to just be patient and avoid the damn scale.

Speaking of weight- anyone have any idea about when the metabolism gets back to normal? It seems I'm on an uphill battle with maintaining my weight and I eat pretty clean and exercise most every day. So frustrating!!

80 days, ya'll!!!

Day 72. Didn't realize I was getting this close to 90 days. Go me!!

Yikes, I just saw I put 25 years. It was 15 years. I would have had a heart attack by 25 years!

Wow. Our stories are almost identical. I took, on average, 250mg of adderall everyday for 25 years. Congrats on a year clean!! I'm about 70 days clean, and some days it's my own private hell. Some days I drink my weight in sugar free red bull. I take 300mg of Wellbutrin daily, and have for s few years. I think that has made a huge difference for me overall. I exercise pretty much daily, but have still put on 10 lbs since quitting. I started a low carb diet 2 weeks ago and have lost five lbs, and I plan to stay on it for a few months. It sucks big time, but so does not fitting in my clothes. Again, congrats on a year. I can't wait to get there!!

Love this!! Good for you.

Day 66. Life is kind of stressful right now, but I can't really complain. I love seeing my number of days clean get bigger and bigger, so I try to focus on that.

Day 63. I'm full of coffee and about to head to the lakehouse with my daughter for a day on the boat. I love days like today- no schedule, no rush.

Thanks guys!!

GC, thanks for the heads up. I have to remind myself many times a day that 60 days is awesome, but it will take so much longer for my body to return to its pre amphetamine state. It's been SO long, that I hope it knows how to do that 😳. Once again, I had a dream that a friend gave me some adderall and I took a handful of them. The nasty, gritty, urgent feeling I used to get on too much adderall felt so real in my dream. So was the guilty feeling. I've cut off my supply, so I have no where to get them. I miss the productivity of them, but I never want to take one again. Ever. I'll take the lazier, happier, more laid back me any day.

Grumpycat! Where ever you are, I'm hugging you!! Today is day 60 for me, so I'll officially head over here tomorrow. This is the longest I've gone without huge amounts of adderall in my system, or any adderall for that matter, in 15 years! I'm the happiest (grumpiest, low-energy) person in the world right now! I'm proud of me. I can't share just how proud with anyone except this site, so FYI- I'm pretty fucking proud 🙌ðŸ»ðŸ‘ðŸ»

Day 60. Holy shit.

Many thanks. Tomorrow is day 60 for me, but in my mind, the counting of days really helps, as well as holds me accountable. I'll probably be one of the few who still need it after 60 days, but thanks.

Thanks GC. Seriously. Oh, and how exactly do I start a 90 day thread? Almost forgot......Day 58 😛

And is there a 90 day thread?

Day 57. I'm almost there. Most days I'm pretty damn proud of myself, then some days I wish it was 90 days, 120 days, etc to feel real accomplishment. I haven't gone too deep into it, but my addiction was so hardcore, and I was so immersed in it, that I truly never saw any other way. I've damaged my health, and I pray it's not permanent. My mind is clearer, but I still feel depressed some days, and my energy isn't nearly where I want it. I need to be patient, and trust time will heal me. I'm a better mom, nurse, and person overall. I'm relaxed, not quick to anger, my to do list stays unfinished most days, but that's fine. I live in the moment way more when it comes to my little girl. Life in general is more at ease. I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks a million for listening. This website has held me accountable and let me bitch and moan, and I truly appreciate it.

Day........56👌ðŸ»ðŸ˜€

Day 51. Our camping trip was amazing! We are going again in two weeks. I feel great 😊

Day 47 🌞 Thanks everyone! Some days are still a little tough, and my energy isn't where I want it, but over all, life is so great. I leave tomorrow to take my first camping trip with my little girl. We're so excited!

Day 45 😀💪ðŸ»

Day 40! I had a dream last night that I took an adderall my friend gave me and I was so pissed at myself. It was so real and I was so relieved when I woke up. I won't ever be starting over again.

Day 39

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