carock84

Hey thanks Grumpy. Yeah right now in my life I am kinda pretty much isolated with the not having my driving license and stuff. I do work as much as I can though because I need the money which does a lot of people so that's a good thing that I have the opportunity to work overtime and keep busy. Its just very hard because Im really focused on where I want to be in my life when I'm on my Vyvanse and it masks the depression on conquering those things. When Im not on them I am just depressed and really get down on the tasks that lie ahead to get where I need to be. I know this is normal but I just hate the Lonliness period that I am going through right now. I live with my grandmother but yeah that just gets annoying lol because she doesn't understand. I have friends but they are all doing there own things like raising their family and such. I am currently single and a lone which bothers me. Will I be like this the rest of my life NO I wont but for the time being its hard to get through without my vyvanse to keep me sane and focused. I know I can do it. I'm going to do the whole month thing to start out and keep coming back here to this site hopefully. I hate being lazy and not focused haha but I really want myself back and I know I will get there if I just have the will power. Ill be alright and just go to know that I'm still young and have a whole lot of life ahead of me and realize that this is just a phase to rebuild myself for the better. MUCH LOVE

I have experienced this many many of times while I'm on my Vyvanse. When I go two weeks without it though I am way more layed back and actually enjoy socializing with people. I cant wait to kick this habit and actually enjoy my life again. I'm excited for a rebirth and being myself instead of sooo moody and irritable around people who love me. Work people irk me the most and last Thursday I snapped kinda and that scared me a bit. People could sense so much tension just by looking at me that people stayed away from me and I didn't give one shit about it but when I got home I felt ashamed. I don't want to be like that because I am soooo outgoing and have the biggest sense of humor. Im on my way though and Im not really scared about it because like I said in my story Ive been there with the whole Adderall addiction really bad times in my life and with kicking the vyvanse now I am more prepared this time because I don't abuse it at all really. Glad I found this site and we are all lucky to get ourselves back to where we need to be. MUCH LOVE!

Hello everyone So I joined this site to basically help others and get as much info on getting back to my old self without a chemical being in my body. Like all of us here I have had my experience with Adderall throughout my twenties and kicked the habit for going on 4 years I believe. I've been through hell and back with the stupid drug and have many horror stories I could share but I'm not trying to write a book. My main focus is to help others and also get myself off of Vyvanse which I am currently taking now. Yes I know Vyvanse is just like Adderall If not worse blah blah blah and I am determined to get off it once and for all. I recently got a 2nd DUI back in February of 2014 and was on house arrest for 4 months and went through some tough times and still kind of am. My main reason I take it is that it cures some of my depression as I am dealing with all the punishments that is related to my DUI. I obviously don't have my license so instead of sitting at home and feeling sorry for myself My Vyvanse takes my mind off things. Yes I have a full time job of 5 years which I have to be up at 4 am everyday, and am a very active person with fitness and eating good all that good stuff. I know the potential of addiction to Vyvanse and I never take more then 40 mg throughout the day so I am not "abusing" it that much but since I am only prescribed 20mg a day I will say Yeah I am in a way. I can get in a routine with just taking 1 pill but that usually goes to shit after a week and I end up taking 2 at the most honestly. I can honestly say that I can go without the drug but when I hit the 2 week period or when I can get my script refilled I always end up getting back on it. My main focus is to get off completely and kick it for good. There is so many pros I benefit while on Vyvanse but lets face it I never feel like myself and that's the main thing I want back as does everyone. I eat better when I am on it, I stick to a routine when I'm on it, It helps my alcohol cravings while Im on it, but I AM NOT MYSELF!!! When I'm not on it I eat everything in site which I know is normal at first, I'm not as moody after about a week off it, I am just not as focused and obviously more depressed. I know if I can go at least a month or more I can kick it just like I did Adderall. So my question is how do you resist getting it filled again and having that will power? I've been through it with Adderall and got my script stopped because I came clean to my doctor and flushed them down the toilet, everything but I always went back and now I'm on this "so called" cleaner drug Vyvanse. Vyvanse to me is not near as bad as Adderall for me at least and it is much cleaner but like I said I want my old self back and my sense of humor and just be me. Im trying to get sober from any mind altering drugs including alcohol and I've did it with alcohol for 3 months and 4 months at a time so I know I can do that and feel so much better without that but now I am ready to kick the pills. SO basically I am going to explore some forums and beat this. I'm not talking to anyone close to me because they don't understand that's why I'm here. I don't think I'm a full blown addict because I was waaaaay worse back in the day and really am careful with the Vyvanse honestly but I want MYSELF BACK ONCE AND FOR ALL. So my main questions would be: What are some ways to resist getting your script filled? Its hard closing the script because what if I need them again for like getting things done in the future or is that just an excuse and with time without them I will be able to do stuff without this so called magic pill? Does the food cravings subside after awhile after you stop taking them? Im a pretty avid runner and without taking them my focus on my running isn't there anymore. But I do run without them How long does it take to fully get back to yourself without the meds? I no with time things do get better and I am going to have to deal with the withdrawls obviously but how long does it take to really say to yourself I made it and I don't want them anymore? Any feedback would be great. I am very knowledgeable of this stuff and have been through hell and back but I'm tired of thinking I can be on this pill and function normally and Im tired of thinking I am better with it. I might be in some ways but I WANT MYSELF BACK!! Thanks guys and I hope to help some people as well