1- I want control of my life.
2- I go to bed feeling sick and wake up feeling sick, only in between when I'm on my adderall do I feel good... parts of the day I guess I should say.
3- I went from being disgusted by cigarettes to smoking a pack a day.
4- I miss just relaxing on the couch and being able to watch a movie without my mind being trapped. Relaxing in general.
3- I always feel like I'm in a huge rush. Even if I don't have anywhere I need to be.
2- I feel very detached and in my own world.
1- lack of emotion
How can you love something that you hate so much and does so much harm to you?