cali.raider99

I don't remember the timeline when she started using the stuff, but our "serious" problems started then. If we used to fight or have an argument, she would cry during or after or something. Now she doesn't cry about anything except when she is crashing and that is mainly becasue she's messing up something she wants to do. She doesn't seem to have any feelings towards me at all execept loathing. I've even tried to just tiptoe and not upset the balance, but it doesn't matter. And if I push backor retaliate against the nastiness, it just gets worse and uglier. If I happne to show any emotion at all (such as crying or vulnerabiltiy) she says that I'm too needy or that I have too many "feelings". If I back off and leave her alone, I'm accused of ignoring her. It's a vicious cycle.

She understands to some degree, but not the severity of it. She feels likes the first couple of days are rough (if she uses too much and runs out early) but then she levels out. I know this not to be true. She has been on them for 3 years now and from what I've read, going cold turkey has weeks or months of potential side effects (not a day or two). When she is on them, it's almost like she feels so good that she believes herself to be better than everybody else, but then off it's just a self esteem crash.

Hey guys, Anyone here deal with a spouse on adderall that abuses their script? My wife is on like 3 or 4, 5mgs pills a a day and she uses those up in about 2 weeks. Then the next 2 weeks are pure hell for me and the kid. She is just angry all the time. Lacks any patience with anything. Flips out at the drop of a hat, cries for no reason, just soul sucking depression. Blames me for everything wrong in her life. Hyper obsesses over her appearance. Talks horribly about herself. Worst part is that she believes that's it mine and the kid's fault (mainly mine) that she feels that way. One minute she loves me, apologizes for the hateful behavior and then two weeks later she is ready to divorce me. I didn't know for a long time, but now I pay attention to her pill use and can almost predict like clockwork when it's all coming apart. Anyone else deal with this or see/have these massive mood swings? just looking for some help or understanding here. I am really trying to understand, but I am at my wits end with this.