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I'm not trying to scare anyone by any means! I thought it would be a good topic to get some feedback on. It's completely necessary to know your tolerance while on it. I know with myself my sleep schedule was interrupted much and since I did abuse it often I had some very vivid sleep. I'd almost jump out of my bed sometimes coming out of a dream. Or when I'd start to fall asleep I'd wake up abruptly. I feel like I started having mild hallucinations. That's what happens if it's taken too much I guess, my fault. I was only on it for 1.5 years to date. Like I said though I'm not a doc, just very interested in the neuro field. There is so much we don't know about the brain and CNS. I think "damage" is only permanent because we don't know enough. There are things like playing an instrument(guitar), learning a new language, video games, exercise, SLEEP, and eating holistic that will greatly improve cognitive function.

It's a paradox, since we use adderall to treat some neurological diseases, but I'm wondering how many neurological disease cases will be correlated with adderall use in the future. Im not a doctor, but I feel like with all the side effects and the potential for abuse,insomnia and a restless mind that diseases like Alzheimer's and Parkinson's disease will become more common. I watched the TED talk "One more reason to get a good nights rest" by Jeff Iliff, and some great points were made about the amyloid beta proteins plaque found built up in the brains of Alzheimer's patients. They noticed while the brain is at rest when you sleep the cerebral spinal fluid moves in and cleans the brain. Almost acting like a waste management program. So if the brain doesn't have a chance to rest it can't be cleaned properly. This doesn't just go for addy users, but I think most of us know the potential for many restless nights and the ease of just popping a pill in the morning. Check out the TED talk it's great info, and versatile for many other health benefits and a clean mind! Just some food for thought. Id like to hear other opinions also.

The fact you realize all of this says a lot. That's good you're making the change. It can and will do that. It had infiltrated almost every thought for any action I would take. Basically designing my life around it. Planning my day, planning the weekend, it was always on my mind. I would make excuses to take more for certain days or events.

I've only been on it for a year and a half. I'm 29 now, so I wanted it for work because I lost interest in everything. Never did well in school anyways because of my constant distractions with day dreaming. So I went to the doctor to get it because I was told I need something anyways because of my issues. Just giving you an idea about my history. I think I'll be okay with a quicker taper, then cold turkey. You've been on it much longer than me, I think you're doing it the right way and that's great your husband is there to help monitor your doses. I know if I had access to it when I were feeling like you I'd want one, and that's the hard part. That's why I had to get rid of my script. So stay strong. You're right about life. There's too much going on! That's just it. How we live in our society and how it is designed currently. We are overworked in one way or another, everyone has a different pressure for success. Because that's what makes you valuable in the eyes of other humans. I don't think we were every taught to fully understand how life is suppose to be enjoyed or lived. No emphasis on health or the beauty of nature and living free. I'm feeling worthless and depressed too. I know how it feels, I just dumped my script last night and it was very tough to do. I didn't want to at all. I knew I would miss my self destruction. Just know that time will pass and the depression will go. I'll be on here often to talk. It's a great feeling to know I wasn't the only one. I really felt that way too. Do you have a job that would allow you to take time off? So maybe you would be able to rest and try to catch up on everything and resituate yourself.....

Hi Smhjen! I feel for you. This is my first post ever for my problem. Today is my first day starting my short tapering method after my intervention by 2 friends this weekend. How large were your doses and how much were you taking? For me, I was off adderall for a week recently and had a huge crash when I ran out after completing my script a week before refill coupled by food poisoning. I was a mess. Excited though to get my script refilled. The day I got it filled before I took any pill I was actually energetic and happy again. Then I got my script and started out with a plan, the plan then turned into excuses to take it. I've been on a bender since last Monday, drinking more and having no consideration for anyone around me. I was taking a lot less than most people, but a lot for me. I'm prescribed 2 15mgs a day (IR). I was taking 3-4 a early and also later in the day and staying up all night. I knew I had a problem. I've done this multiple times. It IS possible to be happy without addy. Don't fool yourself for the high. We are all in the same boat. I still don't think most people understand our problem to the fullest, even my 2 friends who noticed it. The are supportive, but slightly in a condescending tone, they also have taken it before to party and study. I think these discussions are a great way to find support. So hang in there. Stick to your program. Do you have someone that can help monitor your dose?! Do you have a stash? Keep exercising, eat healthier. Easier said than done I know. So today I took one 15mg. I'm still foggy considering the amount I took the past week. I'm going to exercise today while I feel good. Then I plan on taking half of one first thing tomorrow and half a few hours later. Then my last half ever will be the next day. That will be my last one and I got rid of my script already. I know you can do it too SMHJEN. There is more to life than the escape with addy. You can be happy without it, I know you want to and I know you will.