Rich W

Wellness, I can relate to your situation because a lot of what you describe is what I put my family through. For me, it took hitting a bottom to really see what I was doing to myself and those who loved me the most. When I was abusing Adderall I was a shell of a person and found it impossible to communicate what was actually going on. Since I was addicted, I was afraid to tell anyone because I couldn't imagine life without them. Therefore I lied, and lied some more. Towards the end of my run with Adderall I went from being extroverted to a complete introvert. My mind never stopped and it drove me to the brink of insanity. The good feeling the pill brought when I first started taking it in college was gone and I was miserable on it as much as I was when I would run out. I felt completely alone, no matter where I was or who I was with. When I was sick and tired of being sick and tired someone told me "you are not alone." I still get choked up writing that because it really saved my life. He too was an addict and he encouraged me to get help. I listened and ended up in a 21 day rehab program. For the past 6 months I have been off everything and go to daily meetings/support groups to share and hear stories of strength and hope. Good luck and thanks for sharing.