Once_Again_a_Dreamer

I was trying to learn a third foreign language really quickly. It worked really great at first, but it was never worth it. We need to accept ourselves for who we really are, with our strengths and our weaknesses. And yes, I think I've definitely lost creativity from the past 3 years on adderall. I'm looking forward to rediscovering the ideas and fantasies I used to have, to just daydream again.

I so desperately want to quit. Last summer while doing master's thesis research I overdosed and went to the ER. Now I live in Europe and I was easily able to get a Ritalin prescription (since Adderall is illegal here.) Every day I work like a maniac until 2-3pm (taking more than prescribed), then lay in bed shivering and anxious for the rest of the day, afraid to leave my apartment and be seen with such a red face and enlarged pupils, sometimes worrying if I've overdosed. I only have the rest of this prescription, since I told my psych I'm getting married in three months and we'll try to get pregnant. Also, the drugs make me feel less connected to my fiancee and harm my relationships. Can anyone give me advice for finishing my master's thesis in the next week without the Ritalin? I had written so much, but my advisor keeps telling me more changes to make and additions. I've started telling myself that this lonely, anxiety-ridden lifestyle is just a sacrifice necessary for my degree. That's crazy. There has to be another way; this is no way for human beings to live. So, I'd really appreciate any advice from those of you who have managed to meet a deadline and still quit. Thanks so much.