Hi all, new here. I'm almost 60 days off the pills and have been happy with life lately... until boom - intense adderall cravings out of left field. I feel like my body is playing a cruel trick on me by allowing me to go 2 months relatively easily.. each day was getting better than the day before it. I was beginning to feel normal and enjoy my life. The cravings were gradually disappearing and I was feeling so strong and proud!
Why, 2 months later am I all of a sudden obsessed with adderall again? I wish I could make sense of this addiction. I expected the battle to get more manageable with each sober day, not suddenly intensify. I am really struggling to cope with what feels like a test I'm rigged to fail.