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On 12/22/2020 at 1:45 PM, speedracer said:
HI Ruby,
(20 year adderallic - 18 months clean - 3 months on Wellbutrin)
I started Wellbutrin 15 months into my recovery and after 30 days felt better. I take 100 mg in the morning and another 100 at lunch time. My depression/ Anhedonia has lifted. I started golfing again and I love it. Socializing is easier. Work performance is getting better. I feel no side effects at all. I learned about Wellbutrin from other posts and Cassidy in particular who provided an amazing timeline on this site. I kinda wish I started taking the Wellbutrin a little sooner but I was convinced it was just part of part of my recovery. My wife insisted I was depressed and should talk to a doctor and I reluctantly agreed. Not only is it working for my depression, but its also helpful for underlying ADD which is why I started taking Adderall in the first place. I am hoping to take if for 6-9 months and then wean off it.
Good News! I woke this morning and for the first time since I quit Adderall 18 months ago, I wanted to go through my mail and pay my bills. I just finished going through a stack of mail, paid bills and it didn't bother me at all. Haha... For me, this is a really good sign. ..so my condition continues to improve. I am so grateful I made it 18 months and grateful to those who post their experiences so I can learn to manage this recovery better. In my heart and mind, I set myself up with the expectation, that my brain needs 2 years to recover from the prolonged use of adderall. I also learned that from this site. I am almost there. And its true, its feeling like it will take about 2 years more or less. Good luck!
Congrats on 18 months! I'm so glad to hear how well it's been working for you and how much progress you've made. I just started Wellbutrin and am on day 2. Hoping it will be as helpful for me as it is for you!
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Did this end up happening? I’d love to join if there will be another zoom
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On 12/30/2020 at 2:21 PM, Somewhere said:
At 4 months clean you are doing way more than I was capable of doing at 8 months, lol. You should be proud!
For me, it took a long time to lose any weight, but then it came off much faster as my workouts improved. I honestly think my metabolism needed alot of time to rejuvenate. I developed a lot of bad habits while on adderall (I was on and off for 8 years, but it got bad the last 2 years) and it took a long time to heal from all the abuse.
If I had to bet, you'll see big improvements by the spring if you stick to your routine.
I think patience is the key. As I said for me, it took a long time to even get going. Even now as I am progressing faster and almost back to normal, there are still moments where I get really demotivated and self-ashamed ("how could I allow myself to get into such a state!?") I struggle with drinking after such moments so that's been a tough habit to kick. Sometimes I just catch a bad angle of myself in the mirror or something and it almost ruins my day haha.
But I'm really trying on not being too hard on myself. I'm on the right path. I've put in hard work. I need to remind myself of that every so often. I think you should too. You've already put in a lot of work.
Hope you have a good new year! Let us know if you got any results from the doctor!Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. I totally relate to the catching a bad angle of myself in the mirror lol. I'm almost at 5 months off and I'm hoping that this weight is the peak of my post adderall weight gain. Working on patience and acceptance is very challenging. The only result I've gotten from my doctor is low blood sugar and I've always been on the lower side. I'm not sure how this impacts insulin/weight. I have an appointment with a GI doctor in 2 weeks since I am constantly bloated, maybe something will come out of that. Thank you again and have a happy new year as well
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Hi!
I'm wondering if anyone who started taking wellbutrin during their withdrawal can share their experience with it? I'm a little over 4 months off 4 years of adderall use. I was on 30mg at my highest and for the majority of my use. I'm starting to get a TINY bit more energy again but I still feel that constant gloomy feeling and am also struggling with losing weight after gaining coming off of it. Does it help with these things?
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19 hours ago, Somewhere said:
How's your progress?
I've started to get a little more energy recently but nothing significant. I workout 3-4 times per week at home and have been trying to do both more HIIT and strength training however I haven't been going on as many walks due to weather.
I don't believe I've lost any weight. There is a chance there is something going on with me metabolically as you said but it's hard to say. I stopped weighing myself because it was too upsetting. I was 102 at my lowest on adderall and maintained around 110 for the most part while on it. However if I were to guess correctly I am probably around 120 now, but 10 lbs is more drastic on someone my height (5'0").
I'm trying to give it more time as I've only been off for a little over 4 months but I'm considering seeing a doctor soon to do blood work.
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On 11/24/2020 at 10:06 PM, GeorgiaRigby said:
Hi Ruby!! First of all, that's incredible!!! I am so proud of you having been off this since August?! That's so good. I tried to "stop" a month ago and it was three days and I was happy with myself but then I got right back to taking it.
I have been on 70+ mgs (depending on each day I guess) for almost a decade !! I have been feeling horrific for months and need to stop taking this drug. I can't physically laugh when I am medicated, but the three days I was off I cried and sobbed for hours, (I cry every morning these days also, oddly?). But, all I can say is maybe if we continue to come onto these boards and share and talk with each other, maybe that will help us... You are doing so well, so much further along than I am. I am really thinking that I need to get on here more, even if it's just one little reply like I'm doing now to talk with you. I wish I had more advice but I am sort of just here tonight deciding that I am going to keep coming back on here to hopefully meet you and others so we can help each other feel better. Sending my love and a huge hug!!!
Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate it. I never got up to 70 mg but I can't even imagine how hard that must be for you to come off of that dose.
Just from your message, you sound like such a kind and empathetic person. I recall that warmth being suppressed when I was on it as I was more irritable and had more black & white thinking. Hope that provides you with some motivation to continue
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That's a wonderful way to look at it. I don't necessarily miss my 'Adderall self,' I just don't want to feel how I feel now. It's hard to trust/believe that I will feel even better once I heal since I haven't experienced that 'healed' self. Thank you
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Hi! Hoping to find someone around/at the same part of their journey as me. I took adderall IR for 4 years and stopped around the middle of August. I’m really struggling with anhedonia, poor cognitive functioning, lack of motivation, and increasing appetite/bloating. I’d really appreciate any advice as I’ve been off for almost 3 months and missing my adderall self a lot.
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This is so in line with my story. I know this is an old post but if anyone is struggling with a similar story, I'd love to discuss.
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On 2/7/2020 at 4:00 PM, m34 said:
I have/ had same issue. I exercised and ate well even through the depression phases. I held onto about 5-7 lbs that I couldn’t lose for anything between months 2-8. That is a lot for me because I’m short. Around 8-10 months clean the weight just fell off. Hang in there because you won’t hold onto the weight forever. It’s still a battle of cravings for me... without those little helpers!
This comment is really giving me hope that I'll lose some of what I've gained. I've been really careful, but naturally have been eating a TON more and moving less. Adderall and the weight loss that came with it made me extremely obsessive with working out intensely every day and eating as little as possible.
Do you recall gaining a lot of weight predominately in your stomach area? I feel so gross and wide there :/
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Did anyone start taking adderall for the appetite suppression aspect or experience worsening of an eating disorder while on it?
I was on it daily for 4 years, getting up to 30mg IR daily (I’m only 5’0”) and have been off it for ~75 days now. I lost a decent amount of weight on it, and having struggled with body image and disordered eating for quite some time, I was extremely hesitant to get off of it. In fact, the only reason I came off of it was because I was tapering off of a very low dose of Valium that I was on for about 6 months before stopping the adderall.
Ive really been struggling with weight gain, specifically in my midsection. I feel like I’m constantly bloated and my belly fat is disproportionately increasing. I’m not large by any means but I’m really struggling with this, along with low dopamine/Anhedonia. Has anyone experienced fat redistribution after awhile off of adderall? I went from eating probably less than 1000 cals daily and obsession with cutting out as much as possible to being less active, and eating ~1500-1600 on average. I’m trying not to let myself get back on but this part of it has made it very tempting.
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Pen Pal or Advice Please :/
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I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard time. I completely understand the appearance piece of it.. sometimes the urge is so strong to go back and take it. I'm happy to help and am here as well
sending love back!