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  1. Pen Pal or Advice Please :/

    I'm so sorry to hear you're having a hard time. I completely understand the appearance piece of it.. sometimes the urge is so strong to go back and take it. I'm happy to help and am here as well sending love back!
  2. Wellbutrin During Withdrawal

    Congrats on 18 months! I'm so glad to hear how well it's been working for you and how much progress you've made. I just started Wellbutrin and am on day 2. Hoping it will be as helpful for me as it is for you!
  3. Zoom meeting Invite

    Did this end up happening? I’d love to join if there will be another zoom
  4. Weight Gain/Body Image

    Thank you so much for taking the time to respond. I totally relate to the catching a bad angle of myself in the mirror lol. I'm almost at 5 months off and I'm hoping that this weight is the peak of my post adderall weight gain. Working on patience and acceptance is very challenging. The only result I've gotten from my doctor is low blood sugar and I've always been on the lower side. I'm not sure how this impacts insulin/weight. I have an appointment with a GI doctor in 2 weeks since I am constantly bloated, maybe something will come out of that. Thank you again and have a happy new year as well
  5. Hi! I'm wondering if anyone who started taking wellbutrin during their withdrawal can share their experience with it? I'm a little over 4 months off 4 years of adderall use. I was on 30mg at my highest and for the majority of my use. I'm starting to get a TINY bit more energy again but I still feel that constant gloomy feeling and am also struggling with losing weight after gaining coming off of it. Does it help with these things?
  6. Weight Gain/Body Image

    I've started to get a little more energy recently but nothing significant. I workout 3-4 times per week at home and have been trying to do both more HIIT and strength training however I haven't been going on as many walks due to weather. I don't believe I've lost any weight. There is a chance there is something going on with me metabolically as you said but it's hard to say. I stopped weighing myself because it was too upsetting. I was 102 at my lowest on adderall and maintained around 110 for the most part while on it. However if I were to guess correctly I am probably around 120 now, but 10 lbs is more drastic on someone my height (5'0"). I'm trying to give it more time as I've only been off for a little over 4 months but I'm considering seeing a doctor soon to do blood work.
  7. Pen Pal or Advice Please :/

    Thank you for your kind words! I really appreciate it. I never got up to 70 mg but I can't even imagine how hard that must be for you to come off of that dose. Just from your message, you sound like such a kind and empathetic person. I recall that warmth being suppressed when I was on it as I was more irritable and had more black & white thinking. Hope that provides you with some motivation to continue
  8. Pen Pal or Advice Please :/

    That's a wonderful way to look at it. I don't necessarily miss my 'Adderall self,' I just don't want to feel how I feel now. It's hard to trust/believe that I will feel even better once I heal since I haven't experienced that 'healed' self. Thank you
  9. Hi! Hoping to find someone around/at the same part of their journey as me. I took adderall IR for 4 years and stopped around the middle of August. I’m really struggling with anhedonia, poor cognitive functioning, lack of motivation, and increasing appetite/bloating. I’d really appreciate any advice as I’ve been off for almost 3 months and missing my adderall self a lot.
  10. This is so in line with my story. I know this is an old post but if anyone is struggling with a similar story, I'd love to discuss.
  11. adderall induced eating disorder

    This comment is really giving me hope that I'll lose some of what I've gained. I've been really careful, but naturally have been eating a TON more and moving less. Adderall and the weight loss that came with it made me extremely obsessive with working out intensely every day and eating as little as possible. Do you recall gaining a lot of weight predominately in your stomach area? I feel so gross and wide there :/
  12. Did anyone start taking adderall for the appetite suppression aspect or experience worsening of an eating disorder while on it? I was on it daily for 4 years, getting up to 30mg IR daily (I’m only 5’0”) and have been off it for ~75 days now. I lost a decent amount of weight on it, and having struggled with body image and disordered eating for quite some time, I was extremely hesitant to get off of it. In fact, the only reason I came off of it was because I was tapering off of a very low dose of Valium that I was on for about 6 months before stopping the adderall. Ive really been struggling with weight gain, specifically in my midsection. I feel like I’m constantly bloated and my belly fat is disproportionately increasing. I’m not large by any means but I’m really struggling with this, along with low dopamine/Anhedonia. Has anyone experienced fat redistribution after awhile off of adderall? I went from eating probably less than 1000 cals daily and obsession with cutting out as much as possible to being less active, and eating ~1500-1600 on average. I’m trying not to let myself get back on but this part of it has made it very tempting.