Sunshine2153

Hi. Thank you, I'm so glad you posted your story because it is eerily similar to mine. Bartending, easily accessible adderall, quit while I was pregnant. I started back again when my son was 3 months old. What I related to most is randomly cleaning things and smoking cigarettes on my porch too. I unfortunately continued my addiction 2 years after starting back. My son is 2 and 1/2 and I just wasted those years feening for adderall and cleaning like a maniac. I finally quit cold turkey 2 months ago because I was just a miserable, joyless, strung out mess. It was incredibly hard the 1st week but worth every excruciating minute. My son can finally get to know the real me. He makes me laugh and feel real love again which I was incapable of doing on adderall. Instead of going through the motions as a mother I finally feel truly connected to him (even though the laundry isn't folded perfectly anymore).