hey,
I've been reading the posts/articles on this site for awhile now. I've found it helpful & comforting, although I haven't really done anything to get off adderrall. I want to get off it but, like so many others here, I'm scared that I won't be productive, energetic, etc. Will I be me? I've been on it (prescribed) for 8yrs now. I'm almost 29 now & I just don't really know who I am off of adderrall - what if I don't like myself as much? What if I don't like myself at all? I'm also scared to let others down or make others feel like they don't know me (because all of a sudden I'll be this different person). I'm feeling overwhelmed just starting to write all this now. If I hardly have energy/focus ON adderrall now, how am I ever going to have it if/when I go off?
I know I have to be off it (and off my other meds that I've been on so long) fairly soon because my husband & I want to start trying to have kids in a couple of years (& I will NOT do that with meds in my system - I'm trying to give myself plenty of time to get off the meds & stabilize).
I guess I'm just looking for some insights... some hope... does anyone have experience or know anyone who has had success after 8yrs of being on adderrall? (no breaks or vacations from the little orange/pink pills during those 8 yrs).
I have so much more to share & ask, but I think I will leave it at that for now. I'm feeling defeated today and, like I've said, just so scared.
Thanks for being here.