Jimmy Ray

Here we go again. The relapse merry go round. So thankful for this site!

Dealing with the guilt of another adderall binge. Almost constant relapse. But not giving up.

Tonight is Adderall's last stand. This is absolute insanity.

Fighting off the panic and feeling of insanity once again. I've been fighting this for over a year with almost 2 months clean until 4 days ago. For a brief moment, I remembered the joy of being on day one of a binge. I am a BINGER. Today is my 4th day without sleep and only one meal. My body has done all it can and I rode another one to the end. Everything hurts, I'm starving but can't eat, and have that feeling of panic. I feel as if I am one shake away from losing my mind.