TeacherCoach

man i’m just so back and forth. it’s nobody’s fault but mine. i have a second job and also coach and honestly i have ZERO free time. i don’t feel like i have time for even 2 days to get my shit together! i took too many days off last year (usually dope sick) so i’m trying really hard to not take off this year. i have to go to a counselor or someone . not looking for sympathy just talking through my thoughts. my mood changes so drastically every day. my students know that i’m either really happy or really mad. my coworkers think i’m a stuck up snob because i completely avoid them. i can’t make myself get up and teach so i give my students busy work. and they hate me for it. hate this feeling

my refill date is approaching and i’m gassed. just trying to make it day to day. will be hard not to fill it! but i will try !

Thanks guys. i have to figure out a plan. my short term memory has gotten really bad and i feel like i’m struggling every day just to get up and make it through. i coach multiple sports as well and don’t get home until late every night. i’ll always be checking in to read your stories and advice.

Been prescribed adderall 30 mg twice a day for 6-7 years. Go over every month and just try to survive 1-2 weeks every month. Tried Kratom during times when i ran out and now i’m hooked on that stuff. Major depressed. My hands and fingers constantly itch/tingle. i can’t hardly sleep. Absolutely HATE talking to anyone. Problem is i’m a teacher. I just don’t know the best route to take. i have a wife and kids and they have suffered. i have to do something.