ElainaMaria

Hi all! Happy to tell you I'm officially six months clean. It's been the hardest six months of my life, but I feel a little better and stronger every day! The Adderall dreams still haunt me at night, the reminiscing of the good times still sneaks into my brain, but... I'm dealing with it. When I miss it I just remind myself of the kind of person it made me - a selfish, tweaked out loner. Yes, I'm tired. Yes, I still wonder if my brain will ever feel the way it did after five years of taking Adderall. But that's OK. I may not ever be the same, but I'm a million times better right now than I ever was when I was taking it. The best part so far? Sleeping every night like any other normal person. How did I ever do those 48 hour binges? I feel lucky to be alive!!!