I haven't done stimulants as long as some of you here have, and I honestly don't know how some of you are dealing with quitting. I can't speak for everyone, but it seems like a lot of us has been drawn towards stimulants due to an inability to function in society without it.
I have a pretty generic story of why I started taking stimulants. The realization that I always flunked my classes in school, the inability to stay awake during classes, scrolling on reddit until my phone dies, the inability to even pick up my shirt off the floor and hang it to prevent wrinkles, forgetfulness, etc.
Stimulants made me feel superhuman, it's cliché to say that these drugs really do make you feel limitless, but it's true. The first few months of the drug made me do things I never thought I could do, without effort. The drug eventually plateaued, but it allowed me to continue performing at an elevated rate with just a tiny bit of effort, compared to now which takes me an entire day to even wash my dishes or reply to an email.
I was on the drug for about a year, and decided to quit as I couldn't see a life where I kept micro dosing narcotics to function. But without meds, I feel like the same incapable person I was before. The superhuman, or even the "normal" person who was able to do tasks is gone.
So this really makes me feel stuck. A lot of us, decided to take meds to deal with the inadequacies we felt were too difficult to overcome without, but now have decided that addiction is real, and want to function as clean human beings.
But my question is, how do we fix the core of our issues? Even if we can figure out withdrawals and be somewhat happy again, wouldn't we still live with the pain of hard it is to just wash the damned dishes? Even if I were happy, how do I continue to function if I can't even reply to important emails that I know will lead me somewhere?
Choosing between crippling addiction and the inability to function as a person is hard. Is there no easier way?