broken

I am sorry to tell you guys but if they have been on the drug for a period of time it changes the way their brain works, it damages the dopamine and serotonin systems in the brain. When I met my now ex- fiancé she was on Adderall, I didn't know this, we soon became best friends talking for hours when we were apart on the phone. We had this great relationship, so I ask her to move in with me. Not long after the violent rages started, then every time I went to work or someone spoke to me that was female I was cheating and the rage got worse until horrible verbal abuse started then the physical abuse. I then discovered she was on Adderall so my mission was to stay and get her off of it . To have a new beginning, she had never owned a home, so I bought a new home of her choosing new Mercedes, 2 ct diamond pledged my love for ever. At first it was like a new person. To my dismay as the months has went by I have watched as my fiancé has changed over the last two years . Now its as if i am the worst person on this planet , there are obsessions over things that happened 8-9 years ago only with things being completely different than they actually happened ,there are delusions , false accusations, depression, I have been accused of having sexual encounters with everyone from my sons teacher to any female that speaks to me to my ex wife of which is not true I only wanted to be with her. Yesterday I was told I am a evil person with no soul that only blackness surrounds , and that if I truly loved her, I would give her one of my properties so she could leave me ? I truly thought I could save the person I love but I can't. In closing be careful what you wish for because it might be worse than you have. Adderall is nothing more than Methamphetamine with a pseudo molecule and it destroys everything. There is a huge possibility the person you love is gone forever , I have found this out there really not much I wouldn't do to save her but I must admit defeat to the doctor prescription pad , save yourself because I promise , user or ex user would not reach a hand out if you were drowning .