Hello!
I was prescribed 10xr amphetamine salts about a year ago. I reached out to a doc because I felt like I was not excelling at my very competitive job in sales and my responsibilities as a wife and mom of two young kids (who is?) I’m a naturally a forgetful and unorganized person, but I’ve always been a go getter and I excelled in school without being medicated (except for the occasional borrow from a friend cram sessions).
I felt like a super human on adderall when I tried it in the past.
Over a 10 minute zoom call I had my diagnosis as ADD (no hyperactivity) and a prescription. I promised myself I wouldn’t take more than 10mg and I’d be very careful - this would be my answer to “getting it together” and being successful at all things.
it was great for a while- I quickly lost 8 pounds despite zero exercise and I started crushing it at work. My little magic pill took away the hangover I should have gotten from the 3-4 glasses of wine I was drinking at night to come down. It worried me when my Apple Watch would alert me of an alarming heart rate but It didn’t happen too often so no big deal. Well, tale as old as time, it started to lose its effect recently. Over the long weekend in the mountains, I decided to take a break so I could reduce my tolerance. Day 1 I was exhausted! I could not keep up with my kids energy and just wanted to sleep instead of play with them on our vacation. It breaks my heart to write that. I’m tired of being tired if I don’t pop a pill.
I started googling and found some inspiration about quitting. (Especially loved reading about @veeshoney on instagram) I’m finishing up day 5. Im still very tired and just going through motions at work. Im about to start a new job in a few months and I’m not going to lie, I heard the voice in my head tell me that I should start back up again. No way will I be successful in my new job without it.
posting here for support to keep going. Any other mammas out there?