Using Dreams

This is being written for the 17 yr old young man with a brilliant mind, both on and off of drugs. I believe you really are trying to quit(because you are smart enough to know why) yet, I also believe that you spend way to much time rationalizing your screw ups that are happening over and over. If you are really going to quit, why not quit torturing yourself with all of the unnecessary stinking thinking (thank you NA), and just dispose of the pills? Maybe you’re only thinking about quitting, is that it? I doubt with a brain like yours that I need to say anything more huh? You’ve spent a lot of time trying to explain the difference between a young man coming into his life and how and what his personalities will or might end up looking like both after taking amphetamines and by no longer taking them. Are your actions stunting your growth or potential? Right now you can’t have an answer for that, you’re not done yet. And, you’re too young. It more than likely doesn’t matter but I’m 62 years old. I use to be 17 too. And I use to(still do and you will too because we’re born this way!) constantly sit around and analyze every single thing or action just to hopefully find an answer or a way to satisfy the ends to a means that will cause the lesser suffering. And little brother, you’re gonna have to suffer a little. Buddhists believe that suffering is life, I’d almost have to agree. Coming off of stimulants isn’t the hard part, hell that part’s easy. The hard part is the desire to use more, while you’re trying to stay strong and get healthy. That’s your addict brain talking to you. Anyone can quit knowing they have some more pills in case it’s too hard. Isn’t that true, in the back of that mind? You are so incredibly smart. Some aren’t. You’re already winning aren’t you, to a degree? Now finish what you started already. I look forward to saying I’m proud of you! Christopher