Jen P

Luann, I read your story and my heart breaks for you. So sorry to hear about what you're going thru. Seemingly, alone. I'm also a Christian and want to remind you that you're NOT alone. He's there and although I don't have answers for you about a lot of what you shared, I have been through the anxiety attacks and depression. Looking back, it's actually what strengthened my bond w/ Him. You have to lean heavily on Him and and He will help you through. I know it sounds cliche, but it's so true. I would have my Bible right there w/ me (especially at night when it seemed to be worse) and I would immediately get it out, start praying and read when I felt the anxiety creeping up. (which will make you feel like you're about to lose your mind/ just dangling over the pit of insanity- You're not! It's a lie, so don't believe it for a second.)I can't tell you how precious those memories of time spent with Him, are to me now. Probably the closest I've been to Him. I stopped the Adderall over a month ago. Although I do have support from my family, it took them a while to understand why I was getting off of it. They didn't see it as a big deal and couldn't understand what it was doing to me inside. I can say that with LOTS of prayer and lots of baby steps, I've not gone back. It's a rough road, but it's worth it once you come through to the other side and you know that you are free. It's worth it! You'll be in my thoughts and prayers today. Love, Jen