Audrey thank you for your post I completely relate to you the problems your facing especially in terms of the issue with group dynamics. I have a theory and it's just that a theory. But I think that it's possible other non stimulated people have a negative reaction to people who seem to be stimulated or overly intense. Obviously the is nothing wrong with passionate people but It may be the case that it is a natural human reaction that is built into our species to kind of examine other humans within a group and when one senses a stimulated person it makes them feel uneasy or cautious. I have never done cocaine but I have been around people when they were under the influence and their obvious stimulated state makes me feel like they are unpredictable and causes me to treat them a certain way by kind of avoiding them or keeping a distant eye on what they are doing. I really hope you give quitting a chance and that your life becomes as fruitful and happy as possible.
Next, to update everyone on my quit it's been two weeks on Wednesday that I have stopped taking adderall since iv quit I have started a new job and have ALREADY noticed an extreme boost in my confidence and inner peace. My laughter seems to come freely and uninhibited, to the point I may laugh to much but I don't care I'm enjoy the crap out of thinking everything my friends and family say as very humorous. Iv noticed that when I was on adderall I would NEVER call my friends back or attempt to plan a fun event for us to partake in cause I would have rather sat around and read or focus on something by my self. My social life has already shown to be blossoming again. One of my friends even asked me if I had taken my adderall because they said I seemed different. Then when I told him I had quit he was impressed and said that I seem to be having more fun. He was right.
Also, the main reason I quit which is the only thing that I feel really screwed me up when I was taking adderall and still hurts to talk about today...my breath. I don't want to make a bigger deal about it than it is but I have a strong feeling adderall made me have offensive and embarrassing breath issues along with increased anxiety, Its unbelievable I was ever able to date a beatuiful girl for the last couple months. I have since noticed that the smell I would constoantly smell coming from my mouth everyday has stopped and I can now notice a refreshingly moist tounge and mouth because my tounge doesn't stick to the top of my mouth and I even have a little pool of saliva at the bottom of my mouth sometime. This is what excites me now lol. I know that all my friends made fun of my breath behind my back and no one ever told me which was the hardest part but I just have to roll with it and do what I do best now be able to laugh at myself and how ignorant my adderall addiction made me.
That's all for now stay tuned for more posts from the heart. Love this site thanks.