insanewithu

I've been prescribed to Concerta since I was 15 years old. At first, I considered it a "wonder drug" for getting me motivated to study and keep myself organized. It wasn't until a year ago that I realized how dependent I was on it. I couldn't get out of bed without taking it and would sleep for hours if I tried to go a day without it. It wasn't until a couple weeks ago that I realized my dependency problem grew into a full blown addiction. I constantly feel cracked out and I am scared to make eye contact with people. Going out in public terrifies me because I constantly feel like people will take a glance at me and think,"this girl is tweaking out". Concerta no longer motivates me to keep myself organized and sit through a whole day in school. My anxiety levels have sky rocketed to the point where I tend to avoid people overall. If anything, I'm addicted to the rush I feel when my Concerta begins to peak at the beginning of the day. I crash hard earlier and earlier each day. My body is exhausted but my brain is too wired for the rest of me to keep up with. My personality is gone and I feel like a walking zombie. I'm now 20 years old and a pre-med student. I'm afraid my performance in school will only be worse if I try to get off of it during the school year. Or even worse, I'm afraid I won't even be able to get up and go to school. I've concluded that my best option is to admit myself into an Adderall Addiction Clinic for a couple weeks this summer. There's nothing worse than being addicted to something that makes you feel terrible whether you're on it or off it.