CasualLooseCannon

It's crazy, the first story I looked at on this website was yours, and it's literally a mirror image of my situation. The way you started out, the progression it's taken in college, the duration, the relationship adversities, and everything else. I feel you man. I'm fighting it everyday. That "artificial" self can only do so much for one's soul before it breaks it down. Things that I used to absolutely love to do, before I started taking Adderall, and during, are now insanely hard for me to be passionate about yet alone even partake in them when I'm not taking the drug. They've been over-justified, and the process of reigniting that love is hard to do without Adderall as your fuel. If I could give you one piece of advice (not saying that you need it) though, make sure to tell your doctor that you can't be on it anymore - period. Every time I try to drop this habit, there's a voice inside that tells me to get it refilled. Sometimes the voice is so overwhelming that it consumes and overrides the deepest desire to be truly done with the devil's energy bar. I find that running/exercise is the best cure in softening that voice. Good luck Chris, never forget who your true essence. You are not alone my friend. Nate