ChangingMyLifeToday

hey thanks GDTRFB haha 30 day challenge? i just wanted to broadcast to readers what im going thru; didnt know there were contests that'd be cool for support. so at this phase im a sweating a lot more than usual (typically when sleeping). I have some vivdid dreams that cause me to wake up and sit for a bit before sleeping. I am tired, and "slow" during the day. I sleep a lot; appieite has increased; i try to do some form of exercise a day to keep from going crazy mentally (thats where the most pain is ) rather than physical. well i am typing this in bed , sorry got the grammar errors; planninh on sleeping and going for a jog tmrrw...or a steady walk will keep u posted.

Unfortunately I couldn't measure to yesterdays activity level; but I did spend the day doing chores; cleaning the house; taking care of my cats; doing laundry. I figured keep my hands busy. for the most part; extreme loss of self-confidence, contintious self-worry; very anxsious; tired; strung-out; a bit releifed though.. I want to feel this because I haven't felt this pain in so long and I know following pain is pleasure (reality)I'm going to keep active; eat proepr; and keep my readers / my support crew up to date; We can do this guys

undergrad he-he well at this moment, similar feelings of yesterday. A shower/restroom beak really does make the difference. I also realized diet is critical; and as tired and brain dead as I am I going to put my running shoes on and go for a "steady" walk on my treadmill. I still can't really feel "emotion" if that makes sense, but some of my favorite songs really "make me wanna move" still; so im using that to get in some movment; which will be followed by sleeping most likely. Either way a little moving a day can't hurt. I want people to know my intake is 2x vitamin fish oil tablets + many vitamin tablets (all natural vitamins); a green tea with fresh squeeze lemon and honey (that's my secret drink ) i still feel the emtional strains I did the day before; but I become numb to its constrainits today atleast; and will go for a nice walk I tend to sleep afterward so expect a msg from me again tmrrw; thnaks all be strong and thank u for the support; were going to beat this thing!

make-believe, water + juices*

im hanging in there! wanted to honestly expose the truth of the withdrawal cycle for readers. so right now; i feel like total crap; extremely low; like i am a business major; and I wouldn't feel confident in even doing a simple assignment or assessment of something. I don't feel like myself (than again perhaps this "self" was make-bevel?: As well; intense body pain; headache; emotional pain I guess; sleeping a ton. been drinking eating rather healthy; just watch + juices; no caffeine or sodas. well ill continue to keep u posted. not giving up!! thanks for the support Robin+JustwinW!

woke up; again similar feelings to last night/yesterday. its not that hard to fight the urge when you have nothing critical to do.. but gotta say still feel like the real withdrawls are coming up next few nights as i near the end of the half life of adderall in my blood. being strong. getting thru it.

Feel pretty zoned out. Like my head is “onâ€, but my body is “offâ€. Everything is like a daunting task; from simply just getting out of bed to getting dressed. I feel a total loss of self-confidence, very tired, my head hurts, my body hurts, sweating a little; thirsty; hungry;, just feel like crap. I feel my “brain†like slowed down; random thoughts of how I started using adderall til now replay in my head. Isn’t this just like systematic meth in a prescription bottle? =/ not giving up ever! Going to continue to relax; sleep ttyl

I'm continuing the day, slept much of it. Woke up hungry thirsty; body aches, headache; feelings of lost self-confidence; feeling cold (i guess i was always hyped up to feel cold; its like rain/snowing here). feel pretty lousy; won't lie. watching tv/gonna try and shower / relax. not giving up.....never giving up

Thanks JustinW: i feel discombobulated (no work or school for the next week (i took sick leave) ) I've literally planned for this "escape". keeping the work load to a bare minimum and being super lazy; i had breakfast (bowl of cereal) told my brother to get me some vegetables/fruits from the market; gonna start inner cleansing as well; for most part; pretty much body aches/headaches/ light is blinding so I have lights off tv on just chilling. the urge to take adderall isn't there yet; and i don't even feel like taking it. be strong readers; and I promise u i will!

thanks ; so just woke up feeling thirsty; headache and still tired; going to chug some h20.watch some tv; still think the adderall is in my blood from yesterday so full withdrawal symptoms aren't felt yet, but im not going to quit. im going to beat this beast.

feeling real tired; loss of confidence, extremely scared/worried how Im going to react tomorrow; anxious; feel like shit; super laggy; gonna sleep til i wake up; never giving iback to beast. like 3+hrs since last final dose

im quitting literally right now (today). my last dose was 2:15 hrs ago; feeling tired/ hungry/ and little anxious at the same time if this makes sense. i will post daily updates on my status to shine light and hope among everyone. we can fight this beast; we can overcome and rejuverinate our old selves. it's a mirage, don't be fool yourself anymore with (insert excuse here); i'm going to make the change right now; i choose no more adderall! -hope