a_lynne92

I have been prescribed adderall for almost one year now. At this point in my life I feel like deep down I know I have an addiction to it and that I should probably stop. But theres another part of me that feels like I won't even quit taking the drug because I honestly just don't wish to stop. I really don't know what I have to do to convince myself that I should quit taking adderall. I feel like I am going to be stuck on this drug forever. I also feel like I don't want to ever know what it feels like without it. I know that I'm misusing my script. I'm surrposed to only take 20 mg XR in the a.m., then 10 mg IR in the afternoon, but my doctor doesn't know how high my tolerance to adderall is at this point. Therefore; every single month I run out of my prescription over a week early...sometimes even two weeks too early. I really feel like I'm at a loss at this point. Has anyone felt this way? What did it take for you to convince yourself to quit? Is it even worth quitting, or should I make an attempt to control how much adderall I am taking?