rastacath07

Ok, so ive been on again off again with adderall for the past 8 years. Im so ready to quit, it's not even funny. I have been off adderall for the past three days because I ran out. BUT I went to the doctor today and got a script for 60 10mg pills and my doctor wants me to wean and be completely off of them in the next three months. Thing is, I had a five mg pill yesterday and was very optimistic and excited about telling my doctor about stepping down. I dont really understand why he gave me more than he did last appointment. Especially since I told him I want to get off... Anyways, on my way home, I opened the bag, took out the bottle and immediately popped 15mgs. Im so frustrated because I stepped back up. I am 32 years old and have two girls, one and three. My husband and I are in the process of starting our own business so he's gone a lot and im all alone with my girls all day. We live with his parents for now and I hate it. You know, not having our own place, trying to raise my girls in someone elses house... Anyways, I quess I just need some advice on how to maks the step down method work. Its really hard because I literally can not function without adderall and my husband gone all the time. I should probably add that I havd bipolar disorder and ptsd, so adderall is making everything worse. Sorry if this post is all over the place.