Clarew

Day 18 - I've gained weight

Day 11 - I'm tired and irritable!

Day 10!! I started doing Bikram Yoga and Crossfit which have helped a lot! I still feel pretty exhausted all of the time but I'm pushing through it. Coffee and Spark are my new best friends My mind feels so much clearer! I would always read people saying that taking adderall made you like a walking zombie and I always disagreed with it....but now that I'm no longer taking it I now know what they mean. I was in a haze and it's so nice to be out of it. Oh, and my boyfriend and I are back together again I cut off my supply which felt great. I also decided to quit smoking at the same time...I thought if I was going to feel shitty I just want to feel this way once, so I'm quitting smoking and adderall together.

This is my first post but I've been reading this site for quite a while now. The love of my life broke up with me yesterday and I strongly feel it's all because of my addiction. I've been telling him for the last year that I promise I'll quit...but I couldn't ever keep my word. Yesterday after he broke up with me....I realized I choose him. No little pill is worth losing the man of my dreams. Today is day 2. I'm worried about going back to work tomorrow..I feel it's going to be the hardest to deal with. Also, my boss takes adderall and is willing to share with me which makes the temptation even harder. I have to succeed this time. For myself, for my family and hopefully to get my man back. To prove to him I can do it.