GDTRFB

174 days - adderall free I just wanted to check-in with everyone as it's been quite awhile since I've posted. Sorry to see that the 30 & 60 day challenges are not a part of the community as much, anymore. Stay strong good people of the interwebs!

Anyone in SF interested in casual meet-ups for support and sharing about their struggles with quitting Adderall, etc ?

Day 52 - blah - follow up with MD tomorrow for my blood test results I'm proud of you Mila!

Day 44 - had fun taking my dog to the park and watching her play with other puppies. Thanks for the support everyone. It means more to me than you can imagine.

I feel the same way Greg. My real name is Jen some people call me Jenny. Please feel free to use my real name. I was not in the best of places when I chose my screen name. It's a reference to a Grateful Dead song. GDTRFB - Going Down the Road Feeling Bad

Fargo Bates Motel Dexter (just finished it) Anything on ID Cops Simpsons (every episode ever on FXX) The Leftovers (not sure about this one yet) Wife Swap (guilty pleasure) Haven't seen Gotham yet, but I want to check it out That's all for now...

We could have been office twins ZK. Although, I'm sure we would have never noticed each other...

If you consider isolation and a false sense of superiority as "social hierarchy" then, yes.

Hey Mila! Sorry to hear that you're feeling blah. Last week was the worst! I'm thinking maybe it has something to do with the 5/6 week period being a particularly rough time. Hopefully we both have better times coming soon! Are you taking anything to help you?

Day 41 - Crawling out of the DARKNESS I am very happy to report, that I am finally feeling stable and have moments of true happiness. I've been cycling between extreme depression and debilitating anxiety that peaked last week. This period of depression was worse than anything I experienced during my previous 160 day quit. I can't even describe how awful every single minute of the day felt and it was getting progressively worse. I made a Drs. appt. last Friday and started on Wellbutrin XL at 150mg. I started feeling better within 24 hours of my first dose. It was so terrifying! I really thought I was going to be hospitalized. I wanted to do this on my own - without any more meds, but am so happy that I tried Wellbutrin again. I hope you all are doing well.

Here's my little girl. Doh! Need to find a smaller file.

Day 34 - Meh

Day 32 - exercise + smoothies/vitamins = a happier me

I accept your challenge! Day 31 - going to the beach

I agree completely, ZK. Glad you're doing so well these days! You deserve it. Day 31- moving on to the 60 day challenge (again)

Way to go Mila! I'll see you in the 60 Day Challenge.

Day 29 almost there - it's been a rough month Please do not allow yourself to think that taking 1 pill is ever going to be okay. I am dealing with some serious depression after having my 6 day slip up. Hope this helps someone else from suffering.

Way to go, Lesson Learned. I hope you're enjoying some fun TV marathons and getting lots of sleep.

Day 22 - Check I wish I was feeling as good as did pre slip up...

Congrats, Mila! Cutting off your supply is essential and often a difficult step.

Day 20 - check!

Thank you, dear interweb friends! I listened to your advice and made the choice to forgive myself and get back into the quitting groove. I posted the following in the 30 day challenge: Day 14 (174 days this year w/out adderall) Thanks for asking Mila! Congrats on your 19 days and making it through work. You are doing amazing! I ended up coming clean to my BF right after I posted on here. He was very supportive and promptly locked up his meds. I felt so much better after coming clean and talking to him about my slip up. I made the choice NOT to dwell on my "relapse" or continue to punish myself with negative feelings. Instead, I identified the emotional "trigger" that lead to me taking the pills. With that being said, I have to report that I am still feeling irritable, tired and depressed. It is no where near as bad as the months that followed my initial quit....but I have to admit that those 6 days took a toll on my healing brain. I am not feeling half as good as I did pre-relapse

Day 14 (174 days this year w/out adderall) Thanks for asking Mila! Congrats on your 19 days and making it through work. You are doing amazing! I ended up coming clean to my BF right after I posted on here. He was very supportive and promptly locked up his meds. I felt so much better after coming clean and talking to him about my slip up. I made the choice NOT to dwell on my "relapse" or continue to punish myself with negative feelings. Instead, I identified the emotional "trigger" that lead to me taking the pills. With that being said, I have to report that I am still feeling irritable, tired and depressed. It is no where near as bad as the months that followed my initial quit....but I have to admit that those 6 days took a toll on my healing brain. I am not feeling half as good as I did pre-relapse.

Thank you, Mila. Feeling pretty rough, right now. Congrats to you on 12 Days!

Ugh. I had 161 days adderall free. I had a 6 day relapse. I am so ashamed and feel awful. Back to the drawing board....Today is Day 7 without adderall.