Kimber

Why my short relapse wasn't a bad thing.

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After taking Adderall pretty much as prescribed, but for 15+ years, I had quit for 14 months!  Unfortunately the brain fog really never lifted for me and I felt unable to anything that required an amount of brain effort.  After not working for 10 years, I am having to go back to work and felt I could not pull myself together and asked my doctor to prescribe only 10-20mg  pills a month and to not prescribe to me longer than 6 months .   

Well after using for 10 days, I FELT HORRIBLE!  It was as though every bad side effect and then some came on with full force and after the first couple of days, never even got any thing good from using it.  All the "day dreaming" for the last 14 months of how much help it would be if I could just have a "little" adderall,....I guess using again really was the only way for me to stop thinking like that.  Because shit, I swear I don't remember feeling THAT horrible and now when I think of Adderall that is immediately what i feel instead of a "lost love" feeling.  

Sooooo....I'm not beating my self up for relapsing....actually the best thing for me ....

Just thought I'd share   Good Luck to everyone

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Thank you for sharing your experience. We took for a silimar length of time and dose so I’m sure it would be similar for me if I went back on a small dose.  Sometimes I fantasize about going back onto 5 mg to see if I can get ahead at work for a bit but hearing your experience makes me see that’s a bad idea. Hope you are feeling better. 

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I am feeling tons better AND love not daydreaming about adderalls "what Ifs" and how much better I'd be if I just had a little adderall!  Would never have thought it'd make be feel that bad.

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Glad you found out u did not want I’d urge anybody to share thoughts about going back on here first maybe it would have avoided it all together. Just curious why you felt if you quit for 14 months and still had brain fog how would going back on it for only six months then quitting again be beneficial? Even if it did help at the new job be right back where u started after six months having to quit again. I highly doubt uour doctor would have said no to u after six months if you changed your mind, actually with that 6 month request he should have not given it at all honestly but majority don’t care that’s obvious. Hope u tossed away those pills even if it made u feel aweful part of your brain will always crave them no need to have them available. 

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It is posts like yours that keep me from ever considering going back.   I haven't read even ONE relapse post where someone said they were glad they relapsed, or went back to responsible usage.

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