Teresa Posted August 4, 2023 Report Share Posted August 4, 2023 It's been almost 8 months. I don't think I'm ever going to feel better. I can barely do regular life. I just look forward to bedtime. I don't have the energy to exercise. I went outside and help my husband with yard work for about 30 minutes and I was exhausted. I absolutely hate this life. I know I sound like a pity party and I am one I just want a quick fix and there's no such thing. I take care of my disabled son and my grand daughters 3 days a week and it's just exhausting to me. I don't know what I'm going to do I really don't want to go to the doctor and say give me a pill I so badly wanted to do this on my own I'm so mad at myself. Thanks for letting me vent 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Krae19 Posted August 5, 2023 Report Share Posted August 5, 2023 I feel your pain. I’m always exhausted too. It’s almost been 9 months for me. Keep going, be easy on yourself. I do take 10mgs of paroxetine that I think helps with the depression and anxiety. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sirod9 Posted August 5, 2023 Report Share Posted August 5, 2023 it takes time to heal, that means you are going to spend much of your time feeling like shit. go back to stims, and you will throw yourself back even further. I remember 9 months being a particularly difficult time for me, then around 12 months it was hard too, all the up until 18 months. then things really started improving in bits. I just hit two years, and I'm doing much better. Ask yourself where you will be in 8 months if you do use? and then consider where you will be if you decided to stick it out. I also want to point out that hormonal changes for women will worsen things. Adderall threw me into early perimenopause, so I had to seek out a doctor who would test my blood and prescribe hormone replacement therapy. it has helped tremendously. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teresa Posted August 5, 2023 Author Report Share Posted August 5, 2023 @sirod9...I'm 61 and past menopause. I remember when I quit years ago I was finally ok. I think part of my problem is my husband has been doing our yard. It's been 3 years. I'm so sick of it. He won't get help. And he's a hoarder. I just want simple and clean. We've been married 33 years and I'm not giving up although it plays in my mind. I'd have enough from a divorce to live a nice quiet life that I'd regret. Oh the brain. "NOT TODAY SATAN!" 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teresa Posted August 5, 2023 Author Report Share Posted August 5, 2023 @krae19 I would never go back. I just keep praying I'll wake up one day and feel better. I feel good in the mornings It just doesn't last very long. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sirod9 Posted August 6, 2023 Report Share Posted August 6, 2023 23 hours ago, Teresa said: @sirod9...I'm 61 and past menopause. I remember when I quit years ago I was finally ok. I think part of my problem is my husband has been doing our yard. It's been 3 years. I'm so sick of it. He won't get help. And he's a hoarder. I just want simple and clean. We've been married 33 years and I'm not giving up although it plays in my mind. I'd have enough from a divorce to live a nice quiet life that I'd regret. Oh the brain. "NOT TODAY SATAN!" yeah, that does sound difficult to deal with. I'm happily single, but being coupled has its pros. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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