Popular Post ldmcniel Posted February 25, 2013 Popular Post Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 Now that I have been clean from Adderall for a couple of weeks, I am actually starting to see the bigger picture on what addiction does to not only you, but everyone around you. During the worst part of my addiction, I didn't see or didn't want to see what it was doing to my family. My 5 year old daughter was having vocal tic problems and behavior problems. We even thought she had Tourette's syndrome. Looking back I realize that she was striving for my attention. I had turned into this emotionless robot. My husband and I weren't communicating or even connecting like we always did. There was a lot of tension in the house. Now I realize that the tension was me. Everyone on edge not knowing how I was going to react to things. Would I laugh or would I explode in rage. I think on somedays they wondered, do I even care. I was there in body, but my mind was not. It was like an emotionless clone in the house. Now, things are better. I am not going to lie and say everything is just perfect, but things have improved dramatically in just a short period of time. The behavior and tic issues with my daughter have greatly improved, my husband and I are laughing again, and there is not as much tension in the house. Just thought I would share my observation. 7 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Motivation_Follows_Action Posted February 25, 2013 Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 SO TRUE! Isn't it nice to be living in a house of chaos, laughter and empathy; rather than a tidy but clinical house with no soul? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted February 25, 2013 Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 My ex used to say there was a black cloud that hovered in the air over our relationship. It wasn't until I was clean that I realized the black cloud he was referring to was really just over me! I can totally relate to this post. Isn't it great to feel and be present in your life again? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted February 25, 2013 Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 I completely relate to what you're saying. My ex boyfriend I was with for 4 years had to put up with so much. At the time, neither of us knew it was the adderall making me crazy. I blamed him for all of our problems, not that he was perfect, but I (on adderall) was mostly responsible for sabotaging that relationship. I found the closure I needed once I realized this. Thanks for posting this. It's so true. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted February 25, 2013 Report Share Posted February 25, 2013 Its SO TRUE. I've definitely messed up some relationships that way and distanced myself from people I loved..... I also have a family member who is on a very high dosage and who is also severely depressed, has anger management issues and possibly suffering from some other disorders. She exudes so much negative energy, I can't even be in the house anymore. Everyone is always walking on eggshells around her because she gets so angry so easily. I really miss the old her...the REAL her. I wish she would come back. Especially now that I'm seeing more clearly that most of it probably is just the drug 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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