c.anon Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Hi. I'm new to this but I need advice. I was on Adderall, not daily, between 5 & 7.5mg 4-6 days a week some weeks and skipping extended periods of time for 18 months. I turned to Adderall after being diagnosed with Depression & ADHD and being on numerous anti-depressants that never seemed to help me stop being tired and disorganized. It made me feel more focused and never made me feel unlike myself. In May, I went to the ER experiencing numbness and confusion (was given CT, EKG, bloodwork) where they told me that it was an adverse reaction to the Adderall...I haven't taken it since that day (I WAS SCARED!). I ended up at the dr once and the ER another time that week. I went through about 9 days in a fog. Feeling out of it and unable to work or function. Then I felt better. Almost back to normal, still a bit harder to focus at work. Now, for the last month (after I had another assumed panic attack), I have been unable to regain myself. Complete lack of interest, minimal smiles, almost numb except when I'm crying (spurts). I do my best to keep busy as I am a single parent with 2 young children and they don't need to suffer just because I do. Plus I feel a bit better around people and out. I may mention I moved in this time frame too. I have been leaning on my small circle of close friends and family HARD. Also praying a ton:) I've been to the dr and had blood work. Everything tested was normal, except a Vitamin D deficiency and a little cholesterol issue. She said I have anxiety and depression and I have a scheduled appointment with a therapist in a couple weeks. Until then she prescribed me a low dose of Xanax and Lexapro (which I haven't started), but I have only taken a couple Xanax because I don't want to be on anything. I went to ENT because I've had headaches and ear pain and have scheduled a new CAT scan and allergy testing. Also had a bad tooth pulled to see if that would help. I just needed to know if anyone else had a lot of issues after stopping Adderall with lack of personality and general ill feeling or developing anxiety. HONESTLY having a hard time accepting that after feeling better off Adderall, that this would be caused by it and NEED HELP. Has anyone experienced a lot of issues after using a low dose? I seriously barely ever took more than the 7.5 (maybe once every few months), and most frequently used 5mg IR/day 5 days a week but I had someone tell me this happens to some people after stopping it. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Congrats on getting off the stuff. I'm 90 days out I've experienced some pretty serious psychosis over the last 90 days including severe depression, rage and some very dark moments. I've been drawing and doing artwork to deal with some of the negative feelings. I've found this made the time pass quicker. I'm really not much of an artist but I find the process soothing. Playing with legos seems to help too. Your body and mind need time to recalibrate. Passing the time is just part of the recovery process. Getting off this crap is FUCKING HARD , Keep 'on Keeping on dude. Read some posts on this site from members early in the recovery stage and later in the recovery stage. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
c.anon Posted August 20, 2013 Author Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Thanks so much for your reply! I really hope I'm able to get through this and start feeling like myself again. I want to be a great mom, employee, & friend again. Honestly, I was doing well until I moved last month. I think it just triggered something in me. I have an appointment to see a new psychiatrist in 2 weeks, but I'm hopeful to not need to start taking anything new to get out of this rut! Also constantly praying to not be ill, and only be dealing with anxiety! And praying more for the anxiety to go away. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted August 20, 2013 Report Share Posted August 20, 2013 Yeah I can totally relate. A change in life caused my Adderall use and recovery to really spiral out of control. Also the dosage amount really doesn't seem to impact recovery time/ pain. You are through the worst of it. Minute by Minute you are getting better. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sunny1023 Posted August 21, 2013 Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 I'm a single mom as well...like its not crazy enough, right? I imagine a move would be super hard...adjusting yourself, and helping your kids feel settled. Plus, the physical stress. You're in my prayers! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
c.anon Posted August 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 If only I would have known that before! I thought that I ok not taking one everyday and only using small amount. I never even had the desire to take more or increase dose and then again, I never felt addicted! I didn't lose weight, I already had insomnia so that didn't change. I guess it's irrelevant now. I am doing much better tonight...I really hope I can start concentrating at work again soon. And stop having hypochondria. I want to try a natural aid...any suggestions? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
c.anon Posted August 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 wThankyou so much Sunny. Prayers to me are the best way to heal. I swear I have had a complete nervous breakdown with the move! It wasn't far but I'm just not comfortable still. Lol...keep putting my kids in the bed with me (3 & 5 year old boys). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted August 21, 2013 Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 I have to give much respect to the single parents out there doing their best to be good parents. At some of my darker times, I just went home and hugged my kids; it helps. Keep up the good work. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
c.anon Posted August 21, 2013 Author Report Share Posted August 21, 2013 Thank you! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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