Freedom's Wings Posted November 27, 2013 Author Report Share Posted November 27, 2013 Staying close to this site is a God send. I thank everybody for being so supportive. Today Im having an exhausting day, Im trying to muster up some energy. Ll. You are doing it girl. You are right behind me. This is so exciting to see the three of us cross that finish line. Keep plucking away at it! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted November 28, 2013 Report Share Posted November 28, 2013 Happy thanksgiving everyone! I am thankful for finding this place and for all of you who have helped me stay strong and motivated during the last few months. I couldn't do this without you guys! I hope you all have a wonderful day with your friends and family. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted November 28, 2013 Author Report Share Posted November 28, 2013 Greetings everyone! Im just logging on to wish you and yours a very Happy and loving Thanksgiving. Don't eat too much :-) 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted November 29, 2013 Author Report Share Posted November 29, 2013 Salve All, Â Ok..So I didn't think I would make it but I did. Thank God. For Black Friday, which actually at my job started on Thursday evening, I was scheduled to work from 7pm Thursday evening til 4 am Friday morning. Without my all nighter assistant I thought for sure this shift would be an epic fail. I even considered quitting before I went in to work today because I was already exhausted and yawning and the night hadn't even begun. Well I am here to say I rocked it. Even though initially I was super anxious and a bit foggy, eventually I began to get into the rhythm of things and before I knew it it was 1 o clock! Then, to sweeten the deal at 3 my boss asked if anyone wanted to call it a night because we were so slow. I immediately chimed in and accepted the offer. And the truth is, I'm home now and I'm really not even all that exhausted. Just thought I'd share my experience, esp in an effort to stay close to this site. Off to relax for the night. Hope everyone had an amazing holiday! Blessings! Be Well! Â Fw 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
llwilson Posted November 30, 2013 Report Share Posted November 30, 2013 Day 60!! Doesn't feel like it's been 2 months, I am so proud of all of us! And so thankful for all you guys! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted November 30, 2013 Report Share Posted November 30, 2013 It's crazy how we psyche ourselves into thinking we will not survive certain situations without the help of the evil little pill. I'm glad you fought through your long shift and realized it wasn't as bad as you had anticipated. Adderall has been on my mind the last few days because I have major things going on in my life right now...wedding in two months, officially became a homeowner on Monday, and I have a job offer which I am strongly considering. I had a moment the other day where I thought to myself "this would be so much easier if I were on adderall"...but I know that's the furthest thing from the truth. I know that if I did this to myself again, I would end up no where fast. So I just shake those thoughts out of my head and continue fighting the fight towards being clean and free. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted November 30, 2013 Report Share Posted November 30, 2013 Day 60!! Doesn't feel like it's been 2 months, I am so proud of all of us! And so thankful for all you guys! I AM SO PROUD OF YOU !!!!! !!!! !!! !! ! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted November 30, 2013 Author Report Share Posted November 30, 2013 Ll, Hey there beautiful! You did it! Congrats girlie I knew you had it in you! That's three across the finishline! WE ROCK!!!!!!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted November 30, 2013 Report Share Posted November 30, 2013 Llwilson, Congratulations on 60 days, woman! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
llwilson Posted December 2, 2013 Report Share Posted December 2, 2013 It's crazy how we psyche ourselves into thinking we will not survive certain situations without the help of the evil little pill. I'm glad you fought through your long shift and realized it wasn't as bad as you had anticipated. Adderall has been on my mind the last few days because I have major things going on in my life right now...wedding in two months, officially became a homeowner on Monday, and I have a job offer which I am strongly considering. I had a moment the other day where I thought to myself "this would be so much easier if I were on adderall"...but I know that's the furthest thing from the truth. I know that if I did this to myself again, I would end up no where fast. So I just shake those thoughts out of my head and continue fighting the fight towards being clean and free. Couldn't have said this better myself I have those days too where I think it would be so much easier with adderall. But looking at how far I've come I would never want to go back to that lifestyle. Yes I'm gaining weight and have the appetite of a gorilla, but with a little exercise and some better self control I will turn that around. Lunax you are doing so awesome, to have that many life stressors at once is hard. So proud if you girl! Keep thinking those positive thoughts! Xoxo 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted December 2, 2013 Report Share Posted December 2, 2013 Congratulations LL! The 3 of you have now rocked 60+ days and left a log of the adventure for the whole internet to see and provide encouragement for those who are just starting the journey. I hope that this process has been enlightening for you and I wish you the best during the next 60, 120, 180, etc. days. Thank you for showing everyone that it can be done and thank you for your contributions to our community. You are very special people. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Searchingsoul9 Posted December 2, 2013 Report Share Posted December 2, 2013 Day like 38 or 40, not sure! Haven't craved it much yet. Just yesterday, i dont allow myself to think about it ever though. Im afraid if i do i will romanticize it and miss the adderall. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted December 2, 2013 Report Share Posted December 2, 2013 Salve All, Ok..So I didn't think I would make it but I did. Thank God. For Black Friday, which actually at my job started on Thursday evening, I was scheduled to work from 7pm Thursday evening til 4 am Friday morning. Without my all nighter assistant I thought for sure this shift would be an epic fail. I even considered quitting before I went in to work today because I was already exhausted and yawning and the night hadn't even begun. Well I am here to say I rocked it. Even though initially I was super anxious and a bit foggy, eventually I began to get into the rhythm of things and before I knew it it was 1 o clock! Then, to sweeten the deal at 3 my boss asked if anyone wanted to call it a night because we were so slow. I immediately chimed in and accepted the offer. And the truth is, I'm home now and I'm really not even all that exhausted. Just thought I'd share my experience, esp in an effort to stay close to this site. Off to relax for the night. Hope everyone had an amazing holiday! Blessings! Be Well! Fw I just wanted to point out how big of a step it was that you considered quitting your job (is what I assume you meant) as a response to the anxiety. That is major because it shows how important your quit is to you. It's natural to think of adderall in those situations....it's just what you do with those thoughts, and you fought through them.....yesssss! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted December 2, 2013 Report Share Posted December 2, 2013 Day like 38 or 40, not sure! Haven't craved it much yet. Just yesterday, i dont allow myself to think about it ever though. Im afraid if i do i will romanticize it and miss the adderall. It is a nasty liar, isn't it? 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jon Posted December 3, 2013 Report Share Posted December 3, 2013 Congratulations to all 4 of you gals for your courage and determination. You have set this forum ablaze with optimism and hope for people of the future who need a little inspiration to get started. Â I wish you all continued success. I am happy for you. You are miracles! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted December 3, 2013 Report Share Posted December 3, 2013 Shall we move onto the next challenge Madam FW? SS...I'm so happy to see you are still with us!!!! Hooray...we are some badass bitches! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted December 4, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 4, 2013 @ Lulu I say we shall. I have not been counting the days lately, but if my teams ready for another run as am I. Lets do it! Ss my friend, I keep you in my prayers and we are all glad to hear from you. Congrats you're almost there.keep fighting! Keep posting! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted December 4, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 4, 2013 @Jon That was a beautiful post. Thank you dearly for your kind and inspiring words. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted December 4, 2013 Report Share Posted December 4, 2013 Congratulations to all 4 of you gals for your courage and determination. You have set this forum ablaze with optimism and hope for people of the future who need a little inspiration to get started. I wish you all continued success. I am happy for you. You are miracles! Thank you thank you Jon. It's nice to have you in our challenge cheering us on! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted December 4, 2013 Report Share Posted December 4, 2013 Shall we move onto the next challenge Madam FW? Might I propose a more existential challenge than counting days? You have proven that you can stick out the time, now how about some sort of challenge toward learning to live life again? I don't know what that would look like, but I think that it would be a challenge that each one of us could find a benefit from participation. Just thinking out loud here, you can disregard it if you like. In no way am I trying to discourage a 120 day challenge because you know I will be there cheering you on! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lunax Posted December 4, 2013 Report Share Posted December 4, 2013 We (FW and I) have discussed doing some sort of health challenge. I think it would be the type of forum everyone could chime in on. We can discuss different things about nutrition, exercise, and our progress. Thoughts everyone? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted December 4, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 4, 2013 Lulu, Justin I like the sound of that. I was thinking of a sub section or forum called " The iPledge Challenge!!" where we make personal pledges and follow up as to how we are meeting our goals. They could be short or long term health, school, career, play, or just simple life or day to day related challenges, aimed at getting back to living life fully and from a healthy place. Any suggestions? What does everyone think?? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted December 6, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 6, 2013 I am really down right now, feeling depressed . The insomnia is rampant. I called off of work, After a week of pretty much no real sleep, Just made a dr appt for Monday. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted December 6, 2013 Report Share Posted December 6, 2013 I find that sleep is such an issue in regards to my mental well being. If I don't get enough sleep (I shoot for 9 hours), I get depressed and start with the bad thoughts. I hope that you can find a solution to your sleep issues so you can get on with your life. I'll be praying for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted December 6, 2013 Author Report Share Posted December 6, 2013 Like the new pic. Sleep is so very essential to our well being jus, and right now im not getting any and not for lack of trying. I really don't want a sleeping pill but I dont know what else to do. Ive tried melatonin, zquil, and unisom and nothing. Now the bad thoughts and anxiety are rearing. Trying hard to fight it still, but it's hard to cope with no rest. This certainly is not a linear process. Argh..Tx for keeping me in your prayers. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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