GDTRFB Posted April 5, 2014 Report Share Posted April 5, 2014 Hello - 60 Day Challenge! Day 31 - nailed it* *nailed it = I'm caught up on The Bates Motel, wrote in my journal, drew some pictures and played with my puppy Maybe tomorrow my mind will convince my body to get out of bed and exercise. Silly dopamine. Anehdonia is so not cool. Stay cool, my friends. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GDTRFB Posted April 5, 2014 Report Share Posted April 5, 2014 Adderall or not... I hope all is well, and you're surviving/enjoying fatherhood, jaymeyer26. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted April 7, 2014 Report Share Posted April 7, 2014 Silly dopamine. Anehdonia is so not cool. I love your attitude GDTRFB!!! Keep pushing through; I'm glad to see you on the 60 day challenge. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted April 11, 2014 Report Share Posted April 11, 2014 GDTRFB,  keep rocking out!! You got this! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ally Posted April 13, 2014 Report Share Posted April 13, 2014 Just made it past day 60. Next step...? Anyone close to this stage? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted April 14, 2014 Report Share Posted April 14, 2014 Congratulations on making it 60 days Ally! The next steps are up to you. Getting physically active can be a great boost for your emotional and mental well being at this point. It is going to be difficult so start off with little things. Another suggestion is to help encourage others who don't have as much time under their belts. Find volunteer activities in your local area to meet new people and get off the couch. Please keep us up to date no matter what you choose! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GDTRFB Posted April 21, 2014 Report Share Posted April 21, 2014 Hey kids! I'm still here and trucking along. Today is day 48! Sorry, if I have been MIA... It's been a rough ride. I hit a very low depressed point around 30 something days. It was awful, total anhedonia. I felt so bad, that I even started taking Wellbutrin xl 150 mg a day. I swore that I wouldn't take anymore psychotropic drugs. I only took the Wellbutrin for 4 days. It gave me the energy I needed to get out of bed and took away the severe depression, but I didn't feel like I was accomplishing the things I was doing. I could feel the Wellbutrin taking away the few little sparks of the real me that were shining through. I also felt very irritable, and just not happy with myself. I had a day where I just started crying for no reason and I wasn't as loving or caring. It was awful! I stopped taking the Wellbutrin and started to REALLY force myself to get out of bed, get in the shower, and to walk at least 6,000 steps a day. That is my bare minimum. I worked out a program with my fiancé...that if I am unable to meet my bare minimum requirements for two days in a row that I will go to a program that I believe is a legitimate non 12 step program in San Diego called Practical Recovery. Note: if the 12 steps work for you that's great...it's just not my thing. (Yes, I have tried it many times in many different places and even did my 90 in 90 back in 2009 for opiate/benzo addiction) Sorry for the rambling. I hope everyone is doing well. I have been thinking of you all. Note 2: if anyone knows of any good non 12 step/disease model inpatient or outpatient programs out there...your recommendations are greatly appreciated. Love to you all! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post GDTRFB Posted May 4, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted May 4, 2014 I hit 60 days yesterday! Woohoo! I know the rest of you can do this. I'm off to take my puppy to the beach. Have fun! 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 5, 2014 Report Share Posted May 5, 2014 Congratulations on making it through 60 days GDTRFB! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ally Posted May 5, 2014 Report Share Posted May 5, 2014 I'm on day 85! I haven't been great though, I went off my antidepressants and I have taken Vicodin a few times, so it could be from that. I'm still feeling very lethargic, I just don't want to do anything...it's a bummer. And I totally get the whole wellbutrin taking away personality, I feel lime that's what it did to me, it makes sense... The first time or two I quit I could feel the reAl me coming back, this time around is taking much longer,I hope the quitting Prozac and wellbutrin will better for me. Has a b gone else felt possible side effects from quitting wellbutrin? 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post GDTRFB Posted May 9, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted May 9, 2014 I'm so proud of your bravery and making it 85 days, Ally! I feel like shit right now too, but at least I can say I've made it 65 days today. I know things will get better for all of us! 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ally Posted May 10, 2014 Report Share Posted May 10, 2014 Thanks:) Feels good to hear. Good job to u too! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ally Posted May 12, 2014 Report Share Posted May 12, 2014 GDTRFB, how r u feeling?? 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GDTRFB Posted May 14, 2014 Report Share Posted May 14, 2014 I'm feeling a bit better, Ally. I've been taking l-tyrosine and it's given me a bit more energy. How about you? 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ally Posted May 16, 2014 Report Share Posted May 16, 2014 Almost At 100 days,, furthest ever! Feeling ok, a little better I guess. Got any other tips? What's gettin u by? 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BigBeezy Posted May 17, 2014 Report Share Posted May 17, 2014 I'm going to be completing the 30day challenge soon. Can I land here on day 31, or should I start over at 1 here? 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 17, 2014 Report Share Posted May 17, 2014 BB, You can pick up right here at day 31. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 19, 2014 Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 Day 31: Rocked it! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 19, 2014 Report Share Posted May 19, 2014 Way to start the SDC strong! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 20, 2014 Report Share Posted May 20, 2014 Day 32: Complete! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jaymeyer26 Posted May 20, 2014 Report Share Posted May 20, 2014 Day 33: Complete! Â Right on track with you FW - awesome!! Let's do this together! 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted May 21, 2014 Report Share Posted May 21, 2014 All right Jay and FW! Partners in crime. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 21, 2014 Report Share Posted May 21, 2014 Day 33: Green light! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Freedom's Wings Posted May 21, 2014 Report Share Posted May 21, 2014 Lets go Jay!! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post GDTRFB Posted May 21, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted May 21, 2014 Congrats, everyone on killing the 60 day challenge! Ally, I'm so happy to hear that you are in triple digit quit time. I am on day 78 today. I have a really bad cold/cough and am going to the doc's tomorrow. I would say that I probably have 4 good days a week. As far as what's helping me the most is my personal daily goals: - getting out of bed and into the shower (not as easy for me as I'd like it to be) - going to SMART recovery mtgs. - mon, wed and fri - walking at least 10,000 steps or 5 miles - writing in my journal - trying not to get frustrated by my utter lack of energy and motivation - trying not to get frustrated by my loved one's criticisms of me related to my slug like state - rediscovering old hobbies and interests (I've been coloring in this trippy/psychedelic coloring book) - writing physical letters to loved one's and sending a fun little package of stuff - kicking the soccer ball around with my boyfriend and puppy - trying to really clean one closet or drawer everyday - apt used to be spotless, but now not so much... - trying to not get upset about the 18lbs I've gained - I'm a small framed 5ft 2in chick and I usually weigh btw 115 - 120lbs. Now I'm at 138. None of my clothes fit..so I am buying some larger clothes that don't remind me how much weight I've gained every time I try to fit into my regular clothes. - I'm reading a really good book on REBT (rational emotive behavioral therapy) which is a type of CBT - the book is called Three Minute Therapy - written by Dr. Edelstein - side note: Dr. Edelstein founded the San Francisco chapter of SMART Recovery - laughing as much as possible - cherishing and writing about the time's when I feel like my old self - rewarding myself with little things (downloading a new app, buying a magazine, etc.) - trying to accept and love myself exactly as I am at this moment - Oh, and let's not forget Netflix and TV marathons - I'm digging the current season of Nurse Jackie Congrats again on everyone's progress and making it through this difficult journey! Jen_RX (I'm thinking of changing my username to that....what do you guys think?) 6 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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