mslife01 Posted March 30, 2014 Report Share Posted March 30, 2014 I hate this addiction, I miss the old me my life is so far down the drain right now. I want to tell my story but I'm so tired and have been on google for hours trying to find a number to call for help and all I came up with were treatment centers but right now I just need someone to talk to and share this horrible dark secret with. I'm scared to quit but I've never wanted something more in my life. I use to have a good life and now the only way to get it back is to get help with this. Is it truely possible to be and feel normal again, I miss living life and my kids deserve a good mom, I miss them right now and since I've had another sleepless night I'll need to pop however many pillsI have to to stay awake and pray I get some sleep tonight. Please Lord Jesus help me I need you I can't take living this way anymore!!!!!! Praying to myself doesn't seem to do anything. I've told quite a many family members but I don't think anyone cares, my mom, dad, and husband know but not everything that's going on. I did tell my husband about me starting them again and told him I was going to take them like I'm supposed to, that only lasted maybe a week. Mere or there 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mslife01 Posted March 30, 2014 Author Report Share Posted March 30, 2014 I am planning on leaving my hubby, he's an alcoholic and got me started on cocaine when we first.met, then I discovered addys and 7 yrs have passed and there's nothing to show except my babies, who are all well taken care of and their lives are pretty sheltered considering. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post LILTEX41 Posted March 30, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted March 30, 2014 I will pray for you. It sounds like you are really struggling right now and my heart goes out to you. Stay close to this site and we will help support you in your fight to quit. Shoot me a personal message if you need someone to talk to and I will give you my number if you need someone to text/talk to. Do you have anymore left or are you quitting for good right now? 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JustinW Posted March 31, 2014 Report Share Posted March 31, 2014 Your kids deserve the best mom possible; are you willing to do the hard work to be that person? It sounds like you have hit bottom and I hope that you decide to knuckle up and take care of business. We are here for you and I will also keep you in my prayers. This is a great place to share openly and honestly as noone here will be judgemental. Thank you for joining; I hope that you will stick around and use this community as a resource to help quit. 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ChrisJL Posted April 4, 2014 Report Share Posted April 4, 2014 I can't say I've got all the answers but I'm here to talk if you ever need it - Just shoot me a PM; I can give you my number if you need to hear a voice on the other end as well. Be strong and be understanding of others. What I mean by being "understanding" is that your friends and family can't possibly know all the hardships that come with amphetamine addiction. How could they? How could you expect them to? I believe we are flawed in some way that has led us to succumb to chemical dependency; believing that somehow Adderall makes up for an inherent "shortcoming" within ourselves. That is the mindset we must overcome Within that though, I also believe we are strong. Everyone here, yourself included, knows how much strength it takes to stand up to the rough waters that come with Adderall abuse: the self doubt, the physical and mental exhaustion, the complete lack of life balance. Those issues take real inner, personal strength to confront on a day to day basis. Only people who have been there truly know that hurt. You can beat those demons, I know it. Feel free to contact me if you need someone to talk to. I'm there for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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