Ragamuffin Posted November 12, 2014 Report Share Posted November 12, 2014 It doesn't take long to realize that we all share the same story: We got broken down and burnt-out from a life controlled by one thing: Adderall. Many of us are probably still there...at least I am. Knowing this doesn't relieve all the pain and suffering that I, you, and collecitvely "we" are going through. However, it can and does provide me, you, and "us" with some vague sense of comfort to be reminded that we are not alone in our experience with the sorrow and suffering that overwhelms our Adderall-addicted lives. Rather than bore you with my overly-familiar life story (aka "pity party") which I am more than prone to do...Instead, I just want to say today that I am glad I fumbled my way onto here. My life is pretty jacked up - equally as jacked up as yours - and no, I probably shouldn't be expecting myself to have a dramatic experience that instantaneously results in "getting my act together", though I often do expect such. Today I am reminding myself that I didn't get this jacked-up overnight, so I probably shouldn't expect that I will become entirely free overnight. And no, I'm not expecting you to instantly "get your act together" either...and I think this is okay for both of us. I'm just glad that we both made it here (to this website) together, hoping and believing that our deliverance IS possible, even if it doesn't seem to flesh out in our experience or come as quickly or easily as we would hope, prefer, or expect. We know it is possible because of those who have gone before us - who tell of their own experience in the journey to freedom. Thank you for being here too, folks. I am just glad today that I'm not the only one going through it. 3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted November 13, 2014 Report Share Posted November 13, 2014 I am just 5 months clean and I am a mess. I have gained a TON of weight, I have no motivation, my house is a disaster, and I am an uber scatterbrain!! YET...I am happier, more loving, more attentive to others, more sociable, more pleasant, and I am ever so slowly becoming myself again. I have recently had multiple "I should just go back to adderall" moments, but...I just can't go back to that "me". I am glad that I stumbled onto this site five months ago, and I want to welcome you! If your story is mine, then get "done with" adderall and join me (us)! You will totally regret it some days, but hopefully not enough to ever go back... Good luck! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mila490 Posted November 15, 2014 Report Share Posted November 15, 2014 I am just 5 months clean and I am a mess. I have gained a TON of weight, I have no motivation, my house is a disaster, and I am an uber scatterbrain!! YET...I am happier, more loving, more attentive to others, more sociable, more pleasant, and I am ever so slowly becoming myself again. I have recently had multiple "I should just go back to adderall" moments, but...I just can't go back to that "me". I am glad that I stumbled onto this site five months ago, and I want to welcome you! If your story is mine, then get "done with" adderall and join me (us)! You will totally regret it some days, but hopefully not enough to ever go back... Good luck! 1) Great post, Ragamuffin. It's not easy and that's why it's hard to quit and start recovery. But that's also why it's worthwhile, because you realize you DID it and can live an adderall-free life. 2) AlwaysAwesome- being happier, more loving, etc., doesn't sound at all like a mess to me. Great job and congratulations on 5 months! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IMSTAS Posted January 1, 2015 Report Share Posted January 1, 2015 It's been a little over a year since my last pill and there were a few times that I thought of going back. I remind myself in those moments that I've worked so hard to be rid of this crap and I know I'd just have to quit again someday and restart the process all over! Congrats on your five months and just know that five months from now you'll have progressed that much more! Although my house is still a mess too. That's cause I freakin sleep like a human now and actually leave my house! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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