Popular Post Cassie Posted December 24, 2014 Popular Post Report Share Posted December 24, 2014 So, my three year clean date was Dec. 16, but I didn't think about it until a few days later. Life is so much better than it was two years ago, and even one year ago. I finally have a job that I really like and I'm grateful for that. I'm continuing to see gains in energy and motivation. I'm not a big 'gym' person, but I have been walking and hiking a lot (while the weather is nice in AZ). The biggest gain I've noticed is that my skin is getting thicker the longer I'm free of addiction. When I first quit Adderall (and even in the first 2 years clean), I was so fragile and hypersensitive about everything. If I failed at something, it felt like the end of the world. My ego was weak. I still struggle with failure and taking risks, and with being self conscious in social situations at times, but it's getting better. I had thick skin and a decent sense of self before Adderall, until Adderall ruined it. If any newbies are reading this: in the beginning Adderall solves your problems. Over time, it exacerbates them. That is why your drug use must come to an end at some point. When you quit, you are starting from that place of heightened misery - that Adderall has caused. It takes an incredible amount of time to rid yourself of those problems naturally, but that's the only way to make the changes stick. The mental anguish you feel in the first year or two of quitting Adderall is temporary. You need to persevere to see the gains. Happy holidays, my quitting Adderall friends! 8 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zerokewl Posted December 24, 2014 Report Share Posted December 24, 2014 Great post! Congrats . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SweetCarolinee Posted December 24, 2014 Report Share Posted December 24, 2014 You are AMAZING Cassie, Congratulations!!!! Thank you for being such an inspiration and friend to all of us. You are so strong and awesome. Thank you for all that you do and being apart of this life-changing site! <3 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted December 25, 2014 Report Share Posted December 25, 2014 Way to go Cassie!!!!!!!! Congratz on 3 years. Awesome!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IMSTAS Posted December 28, 2014 Report Share Posted December 28, 2014 Congratulations on your 3 year anniversary!! I'm a little over a year sober and although I am light years away from where I started, I'm not where I want to be yet. It's nice to hear that you've continued to see improvement in year two and three. it gives me more to work towards and to look forward to-thanks! 4 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BeHereNow Posted December 30, 2014 Report Share Posted December 30, 2014 Cassie, congrats on 3 years!!! As always, your post is so insightful and gives me hope for continuing recovery. Thank you so much for all that you do here and all that you have to offer others in this journey that is quitting adderall!!! You have helped so many people and I think you're amazing!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted January 2, 2015 Report Share Posted January 2, 2015 Cassie, You hit the nail on the head. I so know what you mean by it at first solving all your problems, and then exacerbating them. That's exactly what it did for me. And with time away from this drug you do actually develop all those skills naturally. I am so thankful I was totally wasted when I slipped because I barely remember what it felt like other than it kept me awake longer to drink. I am grateful for that. I am grateful I didn't take it dead sober and tweak the hell out. I haven't put as much thought as a lot of you have in regards to the changes that have taken place since I quit, but I do know what you mean looking back. I am not the intense insane person I used to be on that drug. Anyhow, I am rambling. Just know that I am so happy to see this amazing post from you and it has been a pleasure to see you grow in your recovery. You are an inspiration to so many! Congratulations my friend! 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted January 14, 2015 Report Share Posted January 14, 2015 You give me hope, Cassie! I am sticking with it and struggling through because of all of you "old timers" on this forum. I read your stories and have faith that "this too shall pass". Thank you for all that you do and congratulations on your 3 years! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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