Zoka Posted March 8, 2016 Report Share Posted March 8, 2016 Hey everyone. I quit 3 months ago - to the day. I am not questioning whether or not to start again although some days the thought "a pill would get me through" is there, but that's just not an option for me. I am, however, questioning the direction of my life. I thought I knew what I was doing but now I have no idea if I am where I am because of 4 years on Adderall. I wonder if every direction I turned, every choice I made, everything I wanted to do with my life, was just the direction of who I thought I was. 1 month after I quit, I went on a school trip to a foreign country, came back and left my 8 year relationship, just as the next semester started. Now I'm back living with my father at the age of 31, no job, no money, and no motivation to do anything yet I'm bored out of my mind. I'm not completing any of my school assignments. I can't. Every time I sit down to study then 30 seconds later I stand up to go do something else and I feel like I'm not even in control of that choice. I have no idea if I even want to go to school anymore. I'm in constant contact with my professors, they know what is going on, but I'm tired of letting them down. I'm tired of letting myself down. And the worst part is I have NO idea if this is how I am really feeling or if it's just all apart of coming off this awful drug. I guess I am just looking to hear other peoples experiences at this point in their recovery. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LILTEX41 Posted March 8, 2016 Report Share Posted March 8, 2016 Yes, don't worry! You are just starting your recovery so right now it's seriously fine to not know the answers to any major life decisions or much of anything. Just be gentle with yourself and know it's going to take some time to figure everything out. As far as your school goes, can you drop a class possibly and reduce your workload to make it a tad easier for this semester? How about reducing your workload into like really small manageable chunks of time. Like promise yourself you'll sit still and do your work for 30 minutes and then get to take a break. Reward yourself and go for a walk, grab coffee, or do something fun that you enjoy. Just break down your tasks into smaller achievable intervals so it doesn't seem so overwhelming. Create a game plan for the day and add in some fun stuff so it doesn't feel so awful. As far as boredom goes, what about hobbies or social things you could find to do with friends? Just something to connect with others, laugh, and have some fun in life again. What about volunteering somewhere? It might lift your spirits a bit and help you feel good in the process of giving to others. Just keep reminding yourself it's okay to take it easy right now. Hang in there and stay positive. Find as much to be grateful for at all times and situations. You are doing great and it will get better!!! Stay strong!! 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted March 8, 2016 Report Share Posted March 8, 2016 3 months was a hard time for me. I was gaining weight like crazy and didn't want to do anything except sit on my a$$ and eat carbs. It gets better, but you have to stay the course until it does. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank B Posted March 9, 2016 Report Share Posted March 9, 2016 3 months seems to be popping up here often must be a bitch for us all to overcome. I'm past the three month going into my 4th soon and it's been very hard but getting better. I'm a father of two both children in private schools my buisness has been crap lately not making money and I feel like a lazy piece of shit. I have no clue on how I will survive but know I'll go down honorably without my pills. My brains gonna kick in here soon I feel it coming on. I've been fucking up my head daily for 8 years so if I'm recovering already in 3 months I'd say the human brain and body is remarkable. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
AlwaysAwesome Posted March 9, 2016 Report Share Posted March 9, 2016 True words. The brain is amazing! Give it some time and you will see that you are so much more than you ever were on the pills. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Frank B Posted March 9, 2016 Report Share Posted March 9, 2016 True words. The brain is amazing! Give it some time and you will see that you are so much more than you ever were on the pills. Alwaysawesome thanks for being on here supporting us people new to life without adderall. It really helps hearing from people who have made it a year plus. 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Popular Post AlwaysAwesome Posted March 9, 2016 Popular Post Report Share Posted March 9, 2016 Just paying it forward. I am 20 months clean because of LILTEX, QuitOnce, and so many others. You will be doing the same thing in a year or so, I just know it! 5 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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