molly1234 Posted November 21, 2012 Report Share Posted November 21, 2012 Hey I am in my fifth day free from add meds. I was abusing my prescription , in my first post it says a bit about how much etc. I'm only 21 and I feel like the last 6 years of my life I have been in a circus where I am the main event , constantly juggling one addiction to the next pretending to be normal and keep it all together on the outside. I feel like a complete failure. I quit cold turkey. For me it was the only option because I was going down hill fast and I wanted out! I just moved home from a horrible break up, I quit my job left my support group AA ( I go for a past alcohol addiction) and my head is filled with the realities of what just happened?! I miss my ex bf so much , unfortunately I was numb through most of the break up and our relationship , which he saw that my addiction to these pills was taking me away so much sooner than I did. It's just a horrible feeling and I'm sorry for being so negative I really am. I just need to get it out. I have slept and cried and wanted to die the last few days. I'm going to see a doctor tomorrow, it's one I have never been too as my doctor ( loves to push pills) funny how I found him. This new doctor is supposed to be good with addictions. I don't know why I brought my age into this lol age doesn't matter , any one suffering from this thing my prayers are for you . This post probably is a bit jumpy and I hope it doesn't offend anyone. My question is as much as I am super pissed at drug companies I can't go on feeling this way anymore soo I'm hoping to ask about an anti depressant .... For short term . I read some stuff on here and I rreally like what someone said about do things that you wouldn't do as to make good behaviours. I am just wondering anybody have good experiences to anti depressants? Am I jumping the gun? T Thank you , this site is amazing !!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sky Posted November 21, 2012 Report Share Posted November 21, 2012 hey, I'm not sure but maybe lay it all out for the doctor, see what they say about anti depressants. I was on Wellbutrin before addy, it was a lot like addy- kind of speedy, u need a lot if water, depresses appetite and sleep, etc etc... I stopped that cold way before the adderall and felt no different. not sure what it really did... my opinion is cut it all out and try to learn ways of coping and dealing with depression- though that is probably VERY naive of me to say, as some ppl are just clinically depressed and need meds to function. best bet is to ask the doctor, maybe there's an anti depressant that is better- hang in there, push thru, things will get better sans addy abuse... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
unod1a Posted November 22, 2012 Report Share Posted November 22, 2012 Don't do anti-depressants! You just have to go through that shit feeling. Anything that's gonna mess with your brain chemicals is just going to be a short term fix. I suffered through the deperession but now IT IS NO MORE. I am perfectly back to normal. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
molly1234 Posted November 22, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 22, 2012 Thanks!! I didn't get in anything. The doctor recommended the exact same Thing! I'm starting to feel better already I can feel that it might be close to coming to an end (depression)... I hope I don't eat my words. Yesterday driving home it was like the most amazing feeling , I could start to feel the glimpse of my old self come back and feeling just okay . I have admit I'm grateful the doctor didn't prescribe me anything. I am hopeful . He did recommend starting to set goals and following through, so I'm looking into colleges, I'm trying to not over due it as I've only been feeling better the last two days. I had a using dream last night, making me realize just how much time was consumed in using this medication( re dosing at the right time , calculating time, obsessing about how I should be feeling) needless to say Its a bit scary,hopefully this new way of living will keep up. Also I used to chain smoke , I feel like now smoking grosses me out completely? Did this happen to anyone else? I'm taking brewers yeast also it seems to help? Thank youuu! I'm sort of wondering oh wow when is this all going to fall apart it seems to good to be true since the way I felt the first 5 days ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FALCON Posted November 22, 2012 Report Share Posted November 22, 2012 unod1a Hey Please don’t bash antidepressants. Iv bin on them for 20 years now . I have drug resistant depression the drugs’ work for me for a brief period of time then thay stop working and I need to change medications often some people need antidepressants on a temporary basses some pealle like me need to take antdepressants ther hole life .You are lucky that you are not inflected with this chemical imbalance .It bathers me tremendously when people like yourself are so ignorant about what real depression is you have no Idea about what clinically depression is. People have no choice butt to live with this disability on a Dayley basses every one gets depression in moist casses its temporary it goes away as fast as it came . Depression can be broth on by life trauma like the loss of a loved one maybe loss of a job or quitting adderall veterans coming home from war with post dramatic stress syndrome. For us with clinically depression it does not go away we need to live and learn how to deal with depression and in some casess if not treaded people will commit suicide to relive themselves from the pain yes my friend it’s a real pain internal pain. So you are totally ignorant by telling some one not to take antidepressants. .Count your blessing friend you are not suffering from depression. FALCON Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ashley6 Posted November 23, 2012 Report Share Posted November 23, 2012 I'm going to back Falcon up here. Coming off of adderall is an event that causes depression, but some people live with not events but imbalances that cause depression. While I don't think jumping to antidepressants very soon after quitting is the answer, I do know some, or a lot of us were using the adderall to mask the feelings of depression. I'm 28 years old, and I remember back when I was 5 years old feeling different than the average "happy" person and have struggled with it ever since. There's a big genetic component to depression, so while some people can combat the depression by lifestyle changes, others like Falcon and I aren't so fortunate. I gave myself 3 months to feel better on my own after quitting to no avail, and antidepressants have helped me immensely. I couldn't get out of the dark hole I was in, and I certainly don't think my chances of staying off of adderall were good had I continued to be in that state. It's hard enough without that component. So to those of you that might never need them, that's wonderful, but there are some of us that do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
molly1234 Posted November 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 30, 2012 I appreciate all the input. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greg Posted December 1, 2012 Report Share Posted December 1, 2012 I think adderall addiction causes depression. So it makes sense to take an antidepressant when you quit. I am also back on antidepressants. effexor specifically. I agree with Ashley. But some people here believe - and i totally understand what they are saying - its better to just be clean from all pills. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sky Posted December 1, 2012 Report Share Posted December 1, 2012 not for nothing but it does feel good to be prescription free. it feels good to feel, the highs and lows, and to get thru the lows au natural, to observe them and know they'll pass. some days I'll wake up and know I'm off, usually from lack of good sleep, but I know tomorrow I'll probably feel better. And allowing time to heal, time to develop as an Rx free person, and knowing that I'm in the midst of it and I have to be patient and keep moving towards where I want to be and who I want to be... 2 months off today. no weed n no addy for 2 months. mentally clearer than I have been in decades. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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