Brandy76

I don't do music production but since I've been on the meds, I no longer care to watch tv, I just listen to one of my favorite songs over & over while doing something mundane. And when I mean over and over it can play for 3 hours while doing house work - weird lol It's strange, I used to be a TVaholic but once I got on the meds i literally had no interest in anything so I got rid of my cable

OMG I've learned the hard way to not take meds before grocery shopping. I'd stop and contemplate the most mundane items that I so didn't need. I would end up taking twice the amount of time to get done. Now that I'm aware of how it can make me becoume ultra focused on something if I do make mistake and take it before grocery shopping I mentally tell myself to focus on my list and that's it. The plus of being on meds is I don't get unwanted junk food since I have no appetitie lol

my obsession on it is instagram and creating collages, i can spend countless hours choosing the right picture, with the oh so perfect caption then there's hashtags....it's crazy

Maybe it's your perception that they're acting different, since they don't know you're on it. But I understand, interacting is so hard. I lost my boyfriend over this 2 years ago because I started it. I haven't had any real boyfriends, no connections since. Sometimes I'm so numb I don't care, but oh boy when the addy's are out of my system late at night, I'm an emotional wreck. Now I'm more proactive in following up with people who I'm interested in as dates. Adderrall makes me so self absorbed that my attitude is I'm such a great catch and "if they want me they'll try harder or pursue me or call me.etc...".....obviously this approach isn't working lol But the double edge sword is when I do find someone I like, I get way too intense with them too fast & scare them off with my horrible mood swings/outbursts lol

I never knew I had a fear of negative feedback due to adderall until my boss recently had a meeting with me telling me he was unhappy with my performance because I seemed distant, intimidating and always late I was so taken aback by this & in my adderrall induced impulsive mind I contorted this meeting as being unfair and biased. So I ended up writing him a long bulletted point e-mail as to why each issue he bought up was somehow biased & wrong Since this is the corporate world that e-mail got escalated to HR....which then got escalated to the legal dept for Code of conduct violations since I was accusing him of biased issues.....OMG just rehashing all this made me realize how this drug affects work in a negative way. This all happened recently and everyday I'm scared I'm going to be shipped out. Although I have started coming in on time and trying to be more of a team player and I definitely now do all my tasks quicker whereas before I would goof off until late in the day then rush to get things done in my final few hours of work

I'm so glad I found the other thread on adderall and job issues, because all the symptoms listed I've experienced and only until now I can realize it's from the medicatoin & not just me. Knowing this I've become more aware of myself now at work and a tiny bit more social, but definitely not as grumpy as before. I knew it was an adderall problem when my boss took me in a meeting recent and stated he was unhappy with my performance because I seemed so "distant" from the team, intimidating and always late...This was a wake up call for me to at least put up a front that I'm capable of doing a job that I've done for the past 15years without any issue

Wow you sound so much like me, every post of your is so relatable. I had to laugh at the similarities of not caring to talk to anyone at work or look them in the eye. That's so me, it's like I have 0 interest in what anyone has to say unless it relates to me lol

Wow congrats on 18 days!! so far I can only manage on the weekends when I'm not working and can just sleep And you're so right, at 1st i started taking it to get stuff done, then it became no matter what I had to do (grocery shop, visit family etc..) I had to pop a pill to stay on my schedule of pills The unmotivated fog happens so much sooner now, during my work day by 3 pm if I don't take a pill, I literally can't get anything done & I get really moody by this time of day

Wow all your points are what I'm experiencing now. It is so weird how yes when you're out and on adderall you can be a social butterfly, but at the same time have no problem staying wholed up in your house alone for the whole weekend doing useless stuff. Now I'm having major problems with the weekend like you mentioned when I don't take it, all I do is literally sleep wake up eat then back to sleep. I do that for the whole weekend, then Monday it starts all over again. such a viscious cycle

you have to go into "more reply options" and on bottom is section that says attach files. But yes I followed that user too. My favorite is adderrall had me cleaning the shower, while taking a shower.....unfortunately i had just did that for the first time this weekend

OMG this one I can so relate to: before adderrall I was always very punctual; ready ahead of time. Now like you said the slightest thing will distract me when I'm getting ready. I can't tell you how many trips I've taken where I'm literally packing as the cab is waiting and things are thrown all over the place ugggh - hate that part. suffice it to say trips are torture for me.

lmao i like that pic

I so relate to the isolation thing and then at the same time if I'm coming down I'm feeling depressed saying how no one likes me. Nights are def bad for me

lol in the post section at bottom there's an option to upload from your computer

Wow I hope your situation got better with your marriage. I couldn't imagine being with someone just like me on it. When you described your husbands outburst of texts and insults it's sad to say but it reminds me so much of my new "adderall" self that I've become. Which is very very nasty & mean if there's a disagreement...and I do that same thing of just sending hundreds of texts to the person which range from mean to super mean then I'll back peddal and try to be nice. the range of emotions that adderall puts you through definitely is not healthy for any relationship

Hey there good luck with your quest to stop. I'm curious to know how your personality changed? I noticed a lot of changes in myself and was curious how things changed for other users

Been on for 2 yrs. I'm still trying to stop using, managed to not use on the weekends. For me the sign was/is my diminished social circle and love life. I've pushed everyone away from me with little care. I hate small talk so when my friends text me they always think somethings wrong because I only text one word answers...to me unless your asking me a direct question or to make plans I don't want to communicate.....that's scary because I used to be so social & bubbly....adderall took that away. And for love life meeting new people is difficult because I'm so intense that I want things to happen right away and since I've become EXTREMELY self absorbed if "I feel" I'm not getting enough attention I create drama..suffice it to say I've scared of countless new men lol I totally agree zerokewl on this site; it's a godsend. Before I knew about this site, all these negative side effects drove me crazy since I didn't realize they were side effects. So I acted out on them so quickly/harshly in negative ways. Finding this site and knowing that the things I was feeling are from the drug makes me not act so impulsively. It makes me more aware.

Found this Twitter page that posts in a joking manner the crazy things we experience on this drug. It's nice to get a laugh out of this sometimes. Here's the twitter account @AdderalIHadMe I also posted a screenshot of some of the funny ones

I so understand whn you say adderall induced beliefs of not quitting. I was supposed to quit last September. I started using adderall for the weight loss part since I compete in pageants. September of last year was my last pageant of the year but of course my mind said I can't quit because there's such n such event where I still have to look skinny. Now I'm back in the spring with pageant season starting back up. And there's some nights I say to myself "how am I gonna make it thru this season" with this much mental turmoil going on

I'm still struggling with coming off of this drug, so far only manage to be drug free saturday & sunday. My physical symptoms: lack of appetite while on it; once it wears off I loose any will power to choose healthy options and pig out hair loss completely; in the front and crown; it's weird beause at the nape of my neck the hair grows and is of normal healthy texture so I look like I have a mullet when not wearing a wig pick at anything on my body. I used to do this before, but on the drug I can look in the magnified mirror for hours picking & squeezing at things skinny lower face; as if my bone density in that area has disappeared Only get migraines on the 2 days that I'm off it which is weird Sweat profusely, even when just sitting at my desk at work lack of sleep; get 3-4 hours during mon-fri; which leads to just a constant feeling of exhaustion

Hi there, yet another story I can so relate to. I like your statement on knowing your sad yet you can't even truly feel it... That's why for me at nights when I'm coming off it, I've ruined so many relationships picking fights and just being a straight up nasty needy witch. Yuckk....

Wow Chris your post had me riveted; I could relate to everything in it. It's weird how things go downhill so quickly; like when you said you only took it if you had "a lot to do" but then the most menial things to an an adderral mind seems like "a lot to do".... It does have a honeymoon phase when you first start; you're happy, doing good in school or enjoying a job you never did, but then (like you said) you stop doing the things you loved doing like practicing guitar....and you find yourself just sitting at home alone engulfed in some random task wasting time. I love this site and find it amazing how all experience are the same. I've been on it 2 years and recently stopped taking it on the weekends which leaves me laying in my bed all day eating and sleeping with no energy to do anything. You say you will stop once school is over; i hope that's true. But after reading this site and experiencing it myself the adderall has a way of making those excuses for you like "I'll stop when....i'm on vacation, when I move, after my wedding" There's always something...

Now I'm really going to have to rent this. I read the bio and it also talks about how he's paranoid about his co workers LOL I usually don't like serious movies, since life is way too serious but I might have to switch from the fluff fluff movies to this for a change lol

Hi Kori, welcome to the boards. I'm new here too and longest I've gone without taking any is 2 days so I'm def no expert lol. But I totally relate to the obession part, for me I'm obsessed with surprise surprise pictures of myself and instagram and creating collages. I swear instagram is the devil to anyone with ocd or on addies. you can get so lost. And I'm the oppositie when people say exercise & diet helped them. For me I'm in the fitness world of competing and I can't start my morning cardio without addies now. I use them as my fat burners since the effect is similar but stronger. Actually this has been the easiest year of dieting / exercising because of addie's stimulant and curbing hunger. Which unfortuanately is another love/hate with this drug. LMAO at 1bad88: so relatable and weird how a drug turns regular caring people into "self centered jerks". Maybe that's all drugs though??

Someone compared me to the character in the Machinist where insomnia caused him to be so emaciated This person doesn't know I'm on adderall but sees how skinny I am and hears me complain about only getting 3-4 hours a sleep a night & right away he compared me to that......Which got me thinking how lack of sleep combined with addie's probably makes for that emaciated hollow face look?? Has anyone seen the movie? Any good?