I just want to say that I feel the same way! Ive been on and off (mainly off for 5 years) I have 4 months off completely. I have been taking more time for myself, ie working out, meditation and baths, which has really helped! Some days are easier than others.
I just wanted to tell you that your not alone! I havent visited this site in a while. Just had a whim to look tonight. Anyways, best of wishes to you! Solidarity and our kids deserve a mom who can feel and function not one who is a zombie! So grateful to have non-adderall induced energy these days!