quit-once

I am taking 80 lb in less than a week I'm to the point where I was before when I was abusing it and for what nothing but a false sense of energy and I'm getting things done and I have to be focused but really I don't have to be I need to be a mom in a good one and in my head I said it was going to only take it when I work the night shift then now it's gone and I haven't slept in days and I kept taking it cuz I don't want to gain any weight back it's been forever since I've been the skinny and I've gotten so many compliments but my mind is so fucked up and I'm not even getting anything done and it's not like I can even tell anybody anything I'm such a happy person and when I take it I'm so irritable unemotional and it's to the point where I'm just seeing things cuz I'm so tired and I'm random body twitches when I should just be asleep I hate who I am on this shit I know better